Well, I'm getting ready to go to bed. I have to work tonite but I don't know how much sleep I'll actually get today. I've just been so out of sorts lately.
The arrival of my niece was a huge, uplifting experience that left adopting from S.A.B on the back burner. I still feel bad for putting that off but the timing struck at a bad time (of which I actually have few moments of since my life is so.. dull) - In a way I wish things could still go through but I'm too numb right now to even make an effort.
After losing Fiesta I cant describe how much of an appendage Holiday became for me. I carried him everywhere, situated him in whatever room I was in where ever I was, took him to visit family. He was my constant companion. I was so, so afraid he'd become depressed and lonely after losing Fiesta.
Now I'm empty, even with my remaining 5 bunnies. Several times this morning as I've wandered through the house doing needed chores I've paused to get Holiday - I've stopped typing on the computer to look over and check on him as well.
I may break down his pool house after I type this, just so I dont walk back into the room later and see it empty. I just don't know.
Thank you all for your kind words. Those boys were dear and I wish so much many of you could have met them. They were happy and I gave them my very best.