fuzz16 wrote:
*hugs*
you're a great inspiration and i hope you are proud of yourself everyday for how much you choose to take on everyday...
and im happy you get to stay in his life
^^thank you soooooo much for thisss..its exactly what i needed..^^
January 15th, 2010
Well, above is the beginning to my blog..I need a little rant space and here is the place to do it.
I got a letter from my brother in law, Alex today.He is currently incarcerated and I have never met him in person. He is one ofPeters brothers... He always writes nice things to me and Peter, usually both of us get our own letter from him.. Well I was reading what he wrote to Peter and I just lost it..
He explains that no one knows what its like to be where he is, he said to Peter that he misses his mom, his brothers and his daughter.He asked Peter to send him money because he is so hungry and wants to buy more food.He said that ONLY if we send him money-he will send a picture he bought in there...GRRRRRR!-My brother is in jail too so I know quite a bit.. But he doesnt understand that Peter and I both had to give up our brothers for a few years because of their dumb decisions. we may not know what it is like in there-but we certainly know what its like constantly wondering if our sibling is safe..And he says he misses his brothers and his mom and his daughter--let the rant-BEGIN;
Peters mom is in Guatemala... Peter has 3 brothers-Rudy who has 2 kids and a wife, Alex who has a daughter and hasnt been with the baby's mom since he got arrested, and Omar, who has no kids, no wife, and i dislike him.. He also has a sister named Zulma, she is Guatemala with his mom, along with his brother Rudy's first son... Peter doesnt get to see his mom, he getsa 30 minute phono conversation with her maybe 1 time a week-so THERE ALEX! He acts like everyone out here is having a party and a blast without him...NOT TRUE-we are out here, trying to make ends meet, trying to get by each and every day, missing him, missing my brother, missing his mom and sister..and about missing his daughter?? He got in trouble when she was a little baby-and it was because he was involved with bad people and tried to do harm to his ex and daughter..he was then arrested and thrown away-6 years..gahhh his letter made me angry..
then in my letter he says that he HATES his ex (Bianca) with a passion because its her fault that he is there..like i said-i never met him in person, just 2 years of writing to him...so usually when i dont know someone like in person-im not rude----but ohhhh boy i gave him hell in my letter back, and if he EVER EVER EVER talks the way he did-our letters will come to a complete stop..and i dont want to do that, but i dont want to here him B.S. all the time..grrrr..
that was rant number 1..now heres 2...;
I have this terrible feeling in my stomach..I dont know what it is about though..its not Evan, its not school, its not Peter...i have this strange feeling that it has to do with the bunnies...im being updated on the fosters, and I trust that if I wasnt going to get them-Ali would most likely just say-NOPE....and I dont think its about Gratie-although i havent heard from Mandy in 4 days-it feels like forever!! I just dont know..i am working with Vegas because he had a few cecal pellets and some long wet poo, and i am still pretty worried, but im keeping an eye on it. and Poker is being himself, quiet, always staring out of the cage...both bunnies are as cute as can be..SOOOOOO, what the heck is going on???? the more i write the more I am thinking that it has to do with my site..i have a feeling that it is never going to be what i want it to be..i dont know--this isnt much of a rant either, but its enough..
NOW; I am going to be done with ranting because I now have given myself suchh a bad headache... i feel terrible also because Vegas and Poker didnt get their 3 hour playtime-only because i havent been feeling well, and i didnt get to put away a few things out there, and i didnt want to leave them unsupervised, so i stayed out there, but then my back started to killlllll me, and i got up to get some tylenol, but realized the time and had to go to Bed Bath and Beyond to get some bunny stuff--YIPPEE...anyways-that was a rant..lol.....i got 2 cabinet shelves so i can make 2 little level things-most likely i will use them for IF i get the fosters, i also got this little cutlery holder thing that works great as a hayrack, and i got some mat to put near the cages, to keep the bunnies from chewing the carpet
this will all be for the fosters..i keep really getting my hopes up about the 2 foster bunnies, but Ali and the other woman never said I was actually getting the fosters-i have to contact them on sunday and i guess ill find out then..please everyone-keep your fingers crossed for this--i really need some more bunnies to love
and fostering-gahhh, it is such a dream of mine..
Anywayssssss--I will have some more stories tomorrow-I am hoping for all good things this 3-day weekend.. Evan will be here tomorrow and Sunday, and we are going out together on Monday..just the 2 of us..
By the way--heres the family update; Evan is doing great---he was soooo hysterical today, he belly laughed until he fell asleep..such a cute little boy..and the whole 'mom and i' thing--well its working out..its been quite a few months since she left, but now having her back seems great...i kind of feel like I am getting to live like a normal teen---but i have such a motherly personality--im not like other teens..like in school-someone eats lunch, throws the tray away-never wipes the table..me?? i eat lunch, keep crumbs off the table, wipe my face, clear the table, and leave no crumbs...im even worse when it comes to germs-yuckkkk..before you are a mother, you really didnt like germs, but its not like you were narotic(some people are), but the minute you have a child-its like eww you know how many germs that has?, constant hand sanitizer, all of that..my mom was shocked when she came home and saw that i have a stock of Lysol disinfectant spray...i always do whatever it takes to make sure that Evan doesnt get sick, doesnt get other peoples germs all over him(im not crazy!), BUT i dont mind if he gets dirty--sure, let the kid jump in the puddle, stomp in the leaves, pick up dirt-afterall, he is a little boy..
i am falling asleep-not sure how much sense i am making...night ya'll...
