This is really hard to write.

[Flashy]

I feel really cheeky asking this, but right now I'm very desperate. I know I haven't been about and have alienated a good few people, so asking for some help is pretty rude, so please don't hate me.

Some of you will know that I have a host of mental health problems. Last Tuesday I got a letter from the most recent psychiatrist I saw who told me that my needs and problems are too complex for him to treat, and they have discharged me.

That means I am left with no hope of getting better, I'm going to be stuck this way.

But I can't be. Quite simply, my buns need me, so I have to fight. They are my reason to fight, so I have to, simple as.

Tomorrow, I have a doctors appointment. I need some help, I need some support, I need, more importantly, some hope. I don't think she can do anything to be honest, all she will be able to do is refer me to the same people who discharged me before, so I know it's a dead end before I have even been. She is a new GP though (new to the area), so she might have other ideas from wherever she used to be.

I really, REALLY need your good vibes and thoughts that she will be able to do SOMETHING to help me because I can't go on as I am.

Thank you to all those who sent me sweet little PMs in my absence, sorry I didn't reply to them all. I don't think I will be back for a while after making this post, I'm not the best person to be around anyone at the moment, plus people are REALLY scary. So I apologise for asking for help and then running away, but I'm at a loss, I don't know what else to do. I'm really sorry. Please don't hate me or hurt me, if you don't like it, please just ignore me, that's far easier.

 

[TinysMom]

Oh sweetie - definitely sending good vibes and prayers your way. Take care of yourself....

Peg

 

[BEAUKEZRA]

Don't give up hope! I'll say a prayer for you and keep you in my thoughts. Good luck and let us know how you're doing.

Heather

 

[mouse_chalk]

Hey Flashy,

I'd wondered why I'd not seen you around much lately. Don't give up hope, keep fighting, there must be help for you out there somewhere. I'll definately be thinking of you.

Lots of hugs, hope to see you back here soon!

Jen xx

 

[pamnock]

Prayers and good thoughts coming your way from all of RO!

Keep fighting and keep pushing. Someone can help you!

Pam

 

[Bo B Bunny]

Hon, you've been in my prayers and I've been thinking of you every day. You will find your way somehow, you know you need help and that's half the battle here. Most people think they are just fine!

Maybe right now, you are suffering because you need to be around for the bunnies. maybe that's what you are supposed to be doing - and getting help is good, but if you were perfectly fine you might not have the time or desire to care for bunnies.

I think we have each our own purpose(s) in life.... even our bunnies. I learn from mine all the time. Clover has taught me to accept onother terms..... not just mine.

I believe that you are too good of a person to not have some healing.

I'm here if ya need me :hug:

 

[Thumpers_Mom]

Oh sweetie, I have been thinking for you and have been praying for you. You are a lot stronger than you think though I am sure that these words will just be that to you. Please, don't give up.

I will continue to keep you in my thought and prayers and look forward to the day that we can have our conversations again. :hug:

*jackie

 

[BlueGiants]

I've beenthinking of you so much lately! Don't give up... we are all pulling for you. And you are right, your buns need you very much.

There has to be help out there for you, keep trying. Here for you if you need to chat.

ray: Sending good vibes and lots of prayers.

Cathy

 

[cheryl]

Oh Tracey,i just wish i could give you the biggest hug...as i have told you in many pm's,we all do understand,it's not your fault.

You also know that i'm always thinking about you.

You can do this Tracey,i know you can

Always thinking about you,and you have all our support

Sending lots and lots of positive thoughts your way

:hug:

Cheryl

 

[Pet_Bunny]

I hope the new GP can help you in some way. Even if it is a referral to the same people, you have to keep moving ahead. Just take care of yourself, because one day everything will be OK.

You have made progress, because you are willing to talk about it, and sharing it with us.

Good Vibes and Prayers. :hug:

 

[Wabbitdad12]

Sending good vibes from me and my herd! Keep fighting, there is help!

Dave

 

[tundrakatiebean]

:hug:

 

[trailsend]

I'm sorry that is so difficult to find the right help right now, I promise you it's out there. While I can't relate to what you are going through, I know what it's like to want help and not be able to find the right kind. I hope your doctors appointment goes well and she has something more to offer you. Don't worry about anyone hating you, I'm sure there is no reason for that at all!

I will definately be thinking of you and sending prayers your way. Talking is always a good thing, and myself and I'm sure most of the people on this site are here to listen if you need us.

Your right, you have much to continue on for, especially your buns, and I trust good healing things will come into your life.

 

[JimD]

Sending prayers and good thoughts.





Oh...and see that guy waving from the other end of the boat you're in?
Wave back....it's me!!
:wave2

 

[slavetoabunny]

We've missed you while you've been away from the board! I think you are making a lot of progress towards wellness by being able to talk about your problem. I have a friend who has been diagnosed with post-partum depression, and her therapist told her that one of the steps to getting better was to be able to discuss it with people.

Big hugs going out to you:hug2:.

 

[AngelnSnuffy]

Sending good vibes and luck! If she tries to refer you to where you already went and was discharged from, I'd ask if there is another specialist that she can refer you to instead. I hope she knows of one.:hug:

 

[maherwoman]

Sending lots of love and hugs your way...and many hopes that this GP gives you the help you need.

And don't worry about what other people think...they're not you, and don't know you well enough to judge anything about you or your life. Just keep your head up high, Hun...you're doing the right thing in getting help...and we here at RO offer you all the help and support we can muster...

Hope to hear good news soon! :hug:

 

[Flashy]

I saw the letter the psych wrote after tyhe last assessment it was full of crap about how i wont enageg in the services. thats simpky not true but its hard to enagegw ehe threy tell you that you are not ill sometimes and ill at other times and whern they say one thing and do anothet, when they laugh at what you say. i wanted hlep but how can i go anywhere for help when i know they want to make me worse, hamr me and kill me.

i told her everythign today, she read the things form the psych then said 'theres only so much people csan do to hlep' at which point i ran crying from the room a\nd came home. they havent done aNYTHING to hlep me. the only thing they potentially did that could have hlped they stuffed up and that made me worse than i was.

thats it, theres poly so much people can do to help, and thats it. i tried so hard. im sorry for my typing, i cant stop crying.

im going to go agaiun now, im really sorry.

thank you all for your kind words. im sorry i let you down,. take care

 

[Marietta]

Tracey dear,

Ro members who've known you for so much time love and support you. Please don't despair, don't lose your heart! As slavetoabunny told you, talking about your problem is the first step of the healing process. There are really good doctors who can help you feel better, don't give up just because your past experience with specialists was not helpful, be positive and search for somebody with good recommendations. Bunnies are excellent healers, too, as you know!

Take care, I send hugs and smiles your way!

Marietta

 

[Brandy456]

:hugsquish:

Aww, thats awful that he dismissed you. I'll pray for you..and make babii too..that is if she dosent destroy me first..



Spend lots of time with your buns, they help. Don't be a stranger to pm me.