Nana, I wish you didn't have to go but I know now at least you aren't suffering anymore, you told us how bored you were sitting in that hospital bed and we could see you were frustrated that you couldn't even do the simplest things, but if there really is a heaven I hope you have found grandad now, I know how much you missed him and you were never really the same after he was gone, but I miss you so much it hurts and I feel like I can't breath. I'm so sorry I was awkard with you when I saw you last Saturday, you just weren't the same, but I hope you know that I love you. I will miss visiting you every weekend, and I'll miss your cheery smile when you open the door and see it's us. I always felt so good when you said my baking was lovely and I'll miss baking you buns and cake, you were always so happy when I did that.
I miss those childhood days, when we used to stay at your house with you and grandad, and we used to come into your room early in the morning and grandad would make us all breakfast in bed, I remember we used to ask grandad for waffles and he used to tease and say 'You want wopples?'. I miss those days so much and wish so much that I could rewind time, just for awhile and be back there again. I hope that you know that we all miss you and love you and tryed our best to make you as happy and comfortable as possible, the doctor said that your quality of life wouldn't have been good anyway and I know that would have made you miserable.
We are going to have your wake tonight Nana, I know you always liked when family was all together talking and having fun, we'll try our best for you Nana and there will be plenty of tears and laughter in your honour and I'm sure you'll be happy to be home again for awhile, I know in the hospital all you wanted to do was go home. I'm happy you passed away with no pain and I'm sure you are too, remember I loved you so much and you were a big part of my life, if you have met grandad tell him I miss him!
Love you and miss you always,
Grace xxx