Sweet Bun Bun

[maherwoman]

I can't handle saying much...but I wanted to let you all know...

Bun Bun, Emily's sweet lionhead bunny, and one of our three little boys that was going to fly home from Peg's today (but didn't, due to a change in plans), crossed the Rainbow Bridge tonight. Bun Bun was Drew's brother...and Drew passed on 21st October.

I'm still so numb, and I wasn't able to tell Emily, because he passed away shortly before her bedtime, and I just didn't have the words or ability to tell her just yet. I will tell her tomorrow...and be there to catch her tears and hug her through her pain.

I really don't know what to think with all this. I can't believe I lost another baby...so soon after losing Drew.

Peg called as soon as she could to tell me that he was breathing heavily, and that she'd had buns pull out of such difficulties before, but wanted to let me know just in case...so I could pray for him. She called me at 8:32pm PST. Just over an hour later, she called to let me know he had passed (but she'd been updating me on his condition the whole time via Messenger).

At this point, I've decided not to fly Dusty home to us. Today, if we'd gone ahead and flown the boys, Bun Bun would've more than likely died while still on the plane. I just can't handle the thought of Dusty perishing that way...and I really have no confidence of that not happening at this point, as we think the problem might be something genetic. (We will still fly Harley, as he's not related at all...but Dusty is, and I just don't want him to pass all alone...I feel it would be selfish of me to still fly him at this point.)

Please pray for Emily, guys. She's just seven years old...and this is the first baby she's ever lost. I don't know how she'll take it...but I'll be there for and with her the whole time.

I take comfort that he knew he was loved, and was being pet while he passed...my sweet boy...we will miss you...

:bigtears:

 

[Bo B Bunny]

Oh NO! It must be something genetic. I wonder if they had a heart condition or something?

I think leaving Dusty with peg is the best too. Maybe getting the babies tomorrow will help? she's getting her little mini-rex right? She can cuddle that baby all she wants - they love being petted and stuff - they still want playtime, but have her start holding him alot and get him used to that - he should do very well. Just let him down to play or back in his cage when he starts acting wiggly/annoyed.

I'll keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers..... I know how hard this is.

 

[Flashy]

I'm so sorry Rosie.

It's sensible to take a step back and take stock about Dusty, hopefully they were two random circumstances (Drew and Bunbun I mean), but it's sensible what you have decided.

Try to draw comfort from the fact that maybe fate knew he was going to die, and didn't allow him to be flown and that he died with someone who loved him and whom he loved.

As for Emily,try not to worry too much about her. At that age she might not understand mortality. Also, children bounce back quicker, she might be upset for a short while, but she should hopefully not be upset for long.

You know where I am

x



RIP Bunbun, binky free with Drew.

 

[TinysMom]

It seems so hard to be posting on yet another Rainbow Bridge thread about our babies. At this point - there are so many questions....was this genetic? How did we miss it? Is Dusty at risk? Is Lily at risk? (Lily belongs to myLoki and is from the same litter).

Right now it is so hard for both Rosie & I to see pics and videos of Bun Bun on this thread - so I'm sure one of us will post them later. The pain and grief is just so raw and so fresh.

I'm filled with so many doubts and questions right now - How could I have missed this? Were there signs I didn't see? I'd had him out the day before and played with him a bit....looking back I can see where he was not as active...but it was his normal nap time. He hadn't had any discharge and he didn't give me any sign he was sick.

I guess all I can is to ask that y'all keep Rosie and I in your thoughts and prayers.

Dusty will ALWAYS have a home here with me rather than put his life at risk with an airline flight. He's my "Survivor" buddy and he loves playing on the couch with me and irritating the cat. I hope to start a blog for him and keep updating it for Rosie.

Peg

 

[Flashy]

TinysMom wrote:

I'm filled with so many doubts and questions right now - How could I have missed this? Were there signs I didn't see? I'd had him out the day before and played with him a bit....looking back I can see where he was not as active...but it was his normal nap time. He hadn't had any discharge and he didn't give me any sign he was sick.

*hugs*

I don't see how you could have missed anything. I don't know the situation but I do know you take great care of your buns and know if anything is wrong.

Bunnies get less active days, could be tiredness, time of day, anything like that and is mostly not an indicator of illness. Thje chances are, even if that was linked, there would not have been much that could have been done, because there were little to no symptoms.

Don't beat yourself up Peg. I know that's easier said than done, but I know that had there been anything obvious you would have done anything for him.

I don't know if either of you have read the necropsies thread in the infirmary but it talks about a 'suicide gene'.Maybe, for this litter with the parents it had, it had a self destructive gene and that meant these buns couldn't survive for whatever reason. Sometimes it happens, and I trulyhope it doesn't happen to Dusty or Lily.

We have had two lots of suicde genes over here and there is little to nothing you can do to save them once they start going. All you can do is love them and give them a great life, and I am sure that Drew and Bunbun were/are greatly loved, and that they loved their life.

If either of you need a chat, you know you can always PM me.

 

[maherwoman]

Please pray for Emily today, guys. I'm going to tell her about this...and I don't know how she'll react. I hope that getting our babies tomorrow helps...

She cried for two days when we lost our Drew...and Drew wasn't her baby nearly as much as Bun Bun was. She loves him so much...it's just gonna break her heart.

I won't be on much today or tomorrow...I'll be spending all day comforting her and spending time with her. Then tomorrow, I'll be spending the day getting her excited for her Cuddles' coming home.

Pray that it helps, guys...

 

[slavetoabunny]

{{{HUGS}}} for you and Emily. Fortunately, children are much more resilient than us old folks. Hopefully, having Cuddles will help with her grief over Bun Bun.

 

[NZminilops]

Poor little Bun Bun, I'm so sorry this had to happen .

I hope you're doing ok, Rosie and Peg, and your families.

Much love to you all.

 

[timetowaste]

oh rosie, i'm so sorry. emily is going to learn at a young age that all good things don't last for long enough. i hope she understands that these things happen and she is not alone in this world.

rip bun bun <3:rainbow:

 

[TinysMom]

Thanks everyone for your kind words.

Art & I had to go for a drive today and we did some talking. We decided against doing a necropsy because we do not feel it would give us enough information. We decided to use our $$ into trying to save the living vs. trying to figure out why Bun Bun died.

This means I'm going to keep an eye on Dusty (he will be staying here for sure) and I am probably going to make a vet appointment for him to see if we can get his heart checked out via. xray or something.

Right now my biggest concern is to weigh the potential stress of a vet visit with the fact we might find out something. I'm going to talk to a couple of folks first to get their opinion on this - especially since a vet visit means a 70+ mile car ride one way.

Dusty loves to watch "Survivor" with me - my hope is that he will become a true Survivor from all this.

Peg

P.S. I have also contacted T. about Lily and I am going to see about helping her pay for a vet check for Lily so she can get an exam.

 

[pumpkinandwhiskersmom]

How's Emily doing? I just read this, and am praying for both of you. How horrible to have to face another sadness. Please know that I'm with you in prayer, and that BunBun is healthy, happy, and waiting for you at the Bridge with so many loved ones. {{{HUGS}}}} for Emily and {{{{HUGS}}}} for you, too, Rosie.

 

[Michaela]

[align=center]This is terrible. :tears2: None of you deserve this, if's so unfair, lots of hugs, and love to you Peg, Rosie and Emily. :groupparty:

Binky free at the Bridge with Drew little BunBun, we're all gonna miss you so much little man. :rainbow:
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Michaela & bunnies Madison and Ebony

 

[cheryl]

Oh....no...Rosie and Peg...i'm sorry you guys

This is so sad

hugs to you both :hug:

Cheryl

 

[SOOOSKA]

Oh Rosie, Peg & Emily I'm so sorry to hear about Bun Bun passing to the Rainbow Bridge.

Binky Free "Little One"

Susan:angelandbunny:

 

[TinysMom]

I just had to let everyone know that I spent a delightful time today on the phone with Emily and I know that with time - she will be ok.

Rosie called me to ask if Emily could ask me some questions about Bun Bun - like his favorite treats and stuff. I was so glad to be able to talk to her and share not only his favorite treats but some of his favorite things to do....from there we discussed her new bunny she'll be getting tomorrow and how Teeny will grow up to be as big as their cat...and all sorts of good stuff.

Emily is a DELIGHTFUL young girl and while I'm so sorry this has happened to HER bunny.....I am sure that she will come through this a much stronger person.

Peg

 

[pumpkinandwhiskersmom]

Thanks so much for sharing that news about your conversation with Emily. Sounds like the apple didn't fall far from the tree there! I've been wondering how you all are doing. I'm so sorry for all you've had to go through. Take care.

 

[seniorcats]

I am so very sorry for your loss. All of you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Ann

 

[myLoki]

Life is so beautiful and terrible and strange.

Beautiful that we are allowed to love.

Terrible that they are ripped from our hearts.

And strange that we do it over and over again.


Rest in peace darling BunBun and Drew. Your sister misses you all. I'll never let her forget you both.


t. :bigtears:

 

[Phinnsmommy]

Oh Rosie. Im so sorry. Even though you never met Bun Bun, im sure it felt like you knew him, just threw his pictures and stories.

He was so adorable. I was so excited for you. Maybe this is just destiny, though. Maybe he knew there were other rabbits in the world that needed you.

Im so sorry Rosie, and pass my condolences to Emily. This must be so hard for her.

RIP handsome Bun Bun.

 

[maherwoman]

I also posted this in Peg's lionhead thread, but thought it appropriate to post it here, too...

First, before I put what I said: thank you so much for all your sweet words, guys...they mean so much to me.

Last night was the first time I've been able to confront this, losing my three babies. And, honestly, I feel like my dream has died. I'm not mourning just the loss of Bun Bun and Drew...but also the loss of Dusty, as (unless I can hop a plane to ya) I will never actually meet my baby boy face-to-face. And even with how much it hurts to let go of the dream of meeting my baby, it would have hurt so much worse to go ahead and fly him, go pick him up, and find that he'd passed during or shortly after the flight. I honestly don't know how horribly that would've affected us and you, Peg...not to mention how horrifying it would have been for him.

I can't describe accurately how all this has me feeling. To lose three in so short a time has been quite devastating to me...my heart is just completely broken, yet I feel numb all over, too. And I can't even confront it all completely, or I'll cry for days, and right now, Em is still so sad over losing her baby that I have to be able to be there for her. But I have to be honest...I feel like crawling into a hole and just crying for days.

I'm sorry to be so negative, but I kinda feel a bit alone. I'm just not able to TALK about it just yet. I can talk about how it makes me feel, a bit...but much more than that, and I fear I will completely break down...and Em's not ready for that quite yet, to see me that upset.

Not to mention, my stress is starting to affect Maisie...she's chewed the fur on her tail shorter than it should be, and I know it's a reaction to my stress, since she's so closely bonded with me. I think this is the most stress and grief I've felt in a very long time, and at the very least the most since I've had her in my life. I'm sure she doesn't know what to do in response...so I'm keeping an even keel for her, too, as I'm sure she'll go into stasis in response if I break down.

I talked to Danny a bit last night about things, but tuned it down, as I looked over and saw the stressed look on Maisie's face. My sweet bondmate...she's bonded with me, and prefers to stay that way, as opposed to bonding with bunnies...so I have to be careful.

Just pray for us...that's the best thing anybody can do.

But I will say...the babies coming home last night did help quite a lot. We really needed some of the joy they bring into the house. (And it was so cute, too...they all kept stealing hay out of Maisie's cage...but she didn't seem upset about it at all, just kinda reacted maternally, and watched and sniffed...but didn't rush over or anything.)

Hugs,

Rosie*