I can relate so much to everything your saying. Especially the video.
When I first got Pipp, I loved her so much it scared me. I thought I'd better go get another bunny otherwise I'd through myself off a bridge if/when I lost her. I got Radar. But he remained just a bunny. He died a couple of days ago. Just a sweet little bunny. I watched his necropsy.
With Dill, I couldn't even bring myself to see his body.
When I lost Dill, I was in desperate need of a distraction, I soon rescued another mini-rex, a little guy who, like Dill, really needed my help. It DID work. He wasn't Dill -- who was one-in-a-million, like I think Simon was too -- but he was a character and he made me focus.
When I lost him, too, just weeks later to a misdiagnosed cat bite, it threw me off for a year or more.
I've taken in several bunnies since, but... they've just been bunnies. I was about to adopt out another little mini-rex I had rescued from a bad situation. I had little or no emotional attachment. He wasn't Dill or even Scooter, I didn't pick him out, he just fell on me. But he's growing on me. Or I've just allowed myself the luxury of starting to love another bunny again.
I'd maybe start by fostering. Get to know them. You never know where it may go. But let it take you there.
Simon really was special.
sas :sad:
