I am not going to make this a huge update, but wanted to give a shout out to everyone. This seemed like a perfect way, as I haven't update my blog in like a month.
I sadly have no bunny photos, sorry all. Maybe at a later date I will post some.
I have been missing from the forum for over a month now, and I really do miss all of you, but I am unsure if I will be returning full time, at least not for a while.
Lets just say that I spent my time online running away from some personal issues. It was far easier to just get online and play on the forum, on facebook, and generally browsing then to face whatever troubles and issues I was trying to overcome. I wasn't really 'living' in the real world. And lets just say that things were starting to get bad. Everything outside of my lab top felt negative.
So I made the choice to pack the computer away and start living in the real world. First I wanted to do it for just 2 weeks, just to figure some stuff out, but I soon realized that those 2 weeks away from online really helped me out, and that maybe I should extend it further.
Now, over a month later, my computer only comes out about once a week, if that. I do check my email almost daily at work, but only jump into gmail long enough to look for anything super urgent, then I leave the computer world again.
And I can say that my personal life, while still a little rocky now and then, is on a whole new level of grand. If anyone that reads this are friends with me on Facebook, you will have gotten that vibe from my always happy status updates.
My beta fish is doing great, he loves to be talked to, and I find his presence to be helpful everyday.
Chaucer recovered perfectly from his neuter, he is just my generally happy boy.
Winnie is something entirely different. I wasn't going to post about this on the forum, simply because I want the time I have left with her to be treasured and for whatever reason sharing it would only make it worse. Winnie has cancer. She isn't doing to well, and we aren't sure she will make it past the summer. I have talked briefly about this with Peg, and her words helped me out very much. Please understand that I want anyone that reads this blog, and know my silly rabbit though words and photos to hear this news, but I am not going to go into detail right now about everything. Just know that Winnie isn't doing well, and that I am working closely with my trusted vet to make sure she is comfortable, and that we are controlling whatever pain she is in. You will see that I am not posting photos of her anymore (maybe of Chaucer, but not of Winnie) and that for the most part I am not talking about the cancer here or on Facebook. I hope everyone understands. It isn't that I am trying to shut it all away and ignore it, but this is how I (and my roommate who is also close to Winnie) have decided to handle this situation, by keeping it, and the grief that it gives us, on the personal level of just us. My vet has talked with me about deciding when/if we should put her down, and if that time comes it is something that we will face. But she isn't ready to give up yet, and I honestly am not ready to say goodbye. We are trying to NOT be sad, and to enjoy all the happy moments we have shared with her, and are filling her life with as much happiness she can have (extra treats, and many extra snuggles).
Well, so much for a short update. Anyway, I am out for a while! If anyone wants to get ahold of me, just send me an email (
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