Silly Rabbits

[katt]

Recently I have felt the need to be reminded that there is too much negativity in the world. Too much hate and hurt and pain.

And it hits me now and then that we should all live like our pets do.

Happy and content.

We should ‘binkie’ in our own human way by sporadically giving a friend a hug, a happy note, or just a smile. Offering a helping hand to a complete stranger, holding the door for that mom loaded with a diaper bag and baby. Taking the extra minute driving to allow someone to pull out ahead of you.

I mean isn’t that what a binkie is? A burst of joy that one has without force? Something that happens naturally and not only makes you happy, but those around you?

Why aren’t these basic principles being taught anymore to our youth? Basic things like the golden rule, and respect. Where is human’s humanity?

And I will admit, I haven’t been doing enough self ‘binkies’ recently. And that needs to change. And I am going to change. And I suggest everyone else lose and remove the negativity from their lives that isn’t needed, isn’t useful. Find the inspiration from your rabbits and binkie. Enjoy the shear freedom and self-worth you get out of making someone smile, of helping other.

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[countrybuns]

Nice speach! I agree, I think we should all let go of the negativity and binkie.

 

[katt]

I am really trying to live in a more positive way. it takes work. i feel like our culture trains us to be negative, and from this point on, i refuse to play into it all.

the bunnies are all good. chaucer got a new pet bed for his cage and he LOVES it, he moved it (of course) to the part of his cage where he can watch me sleep, then he jumped in it, dead bunny flopped, and did this huge *sigh* then promptly fell asleep. talk about happy bunny. i wish i would have gotten a photo of it, but i was already in bed, and 1/2 asleep so i wasn't getting up for anything!

i plan on getting some photos in tonight. i have honestly had a really long past 7 days, i have been working a lot and had stuff going on at work, and have been just out and about trying to get some running around done and such.

oh, and also i am going to schedule chaucers neuter appointment soon as he is for sure old enough to get all those teenage boy bunny hormones in (he *might* have sprayed me the other night, and i am not to thrilled about that idea).

and winne is currently being a bad little girl. (what is new there, right?) last night she decided that i shouldn't sleep a full night. so first she keeps comming up to me and nudging my face every few minutes. then once she finally stopped doing that she went right over to chaucer's cage and started pulling out the clothing he has stolen from me. and if you have read my blog before, then you know that chaucer is attached to my cloths he takes, i can't even remove them from his cage without him freaking out.

so there is winnie sitting on a pile of tank tops and t shirts looking all innocent while chaucer is just thumping his little brains out at about 4 am! i had to get up, take them from winnie, give them back to chaucer and sit for about 20 minutes calming the poor little boy down.

i then decided to put a stop to all the winnie madness and i picked her up, put her in bed with me and gave her the heating pad. she cuddled right in and fell asleep like a good little girl for the rest of the night

ullhair::foreheadsmack::craziness:nope::surrenderanic::banghead:censored2:

 

[katt]

Ug. I haven't updated my blog since 2/25!!!! totally failing as a blogger!

Not that it is all my fault, my computer died on me over the weekend (actually the power cord broke, then I happened to use all my battery power up) so I was completely without the internet for days!

Happily back online now with a way over-priced new charger, and the help of John, my new best friend from BestBuy! (I think I would have paid him just about anything to get my computer back up and running, I am slightly addicted to my online time, and as it really is my only social life, I was starting to feel rather lost).

And also sorry to all (or anyone who reads this, although I question if anyone really does LOL), but no bunny photos tonight, with my computer broken I set my camera aside as I had no way to get the photos off my memory card without going and paying $3 for a CD from the store (and I was either to cheap or lazy to do that).

All the buns are good though, very happy and all settled in for the night after filling up on lots of greens.

BUT I do have some other photos that I would LOVE to share! first is one of my nephew, we took him out ice fishing for the first time a couple weekends ago, and he loved it, and caught 2 fish!

and the rest are of my photo trip today, in our area we have a set of old, old building called the "old state hospital". most are in the process of being renovated and turned into apartments and businesses. A lot of the past is rather dark, and honestly they have an extremely 'creepy' feeling to them (and I was just walking around the outside of them, in pure daylight!)

the doors are all locked, chained, and posted warnings to stay out

but it hasn't stopped most people, normally silly teens break into these beautiful old buildings to try to find ghosts or simply on dares

(broken window glass)

or they paint graffiti on the walls outside the buildings that distract the great Gothic appearance these grand old buildings take

and finally I made a few friends out of some chickens! They were so fun, I got into a clucking war with on of the hens LOL. It brought back lots of memories from when we raised a small flock growing up!

okay, all for now! Should actually have bunny photos and stories tomorrow!!

 

[katt]

well today has sucked.

first i had to get up early, at 7:30 am, now this might seem like a normal time for many people, but my day doesn't ever start till about 10 am, so this was wicked early for me.

then i had to rush out the house to get the the dr. they gave me an allergy test were i have to wear these patches on my back for 4 days and see what my reaction to them is.

which means i can't take an actual shower for 4 days. not very happy about that at all.

then they tell me i need to go get lab work done, including all these tests and a full liver panel. so they had to take 4 little containers of blood, so i am tired from that as well (its just how i react to it, i always get grumpy and sleepy after getting it done).

then i get home to see that winnie is doing worse. her fur is shedding everywere, she is laying in a bunny loaf, and she is not using her litterbox (very odd for her).

so i call the vet, they can get me in right away if i rush out the door.

so i get there and they find no mites (that is what i thought was going on), and she is stressed out, and i am stressed out which is making her more stressed out and that makes me even MORE stressed out.

bless the fact that i have a GREAT vet. she listens to what i say and takes my advice and opinions to heart. she also let ME be the one to hold winnie (i have seen vets before that won't let me handle my animal during an exam, but has the vet tech do it) while she is giving her a good looking over, which really helps to calm her down. she just hates strange people she doesn't know.

so now i am back home, we have to wait for a skin culture to see what exactly is going on, they gave me an option of putting her right on antibiotics without waiting for the result, and i said yes. they then asked if i wanted baytril or a different one (see why i love my vet) so i opted for a sulfa based antibiotic. and some ointment for her skin (she has some bald sore spots, one is bleeding and such).

she is itchy all over, you can't even touch her without her skin twitching from it being itchy.

so now that we are both just about to our limit with the day, we are cuddled in bed, she gets her heating pad on low and is laying sprawled next to me.

looks like this is how our day will be going.

 

[katt]

well, just wanted to update that winnie is feeling better today.

she is more perked up and stuff.

i on the other hand, am going crazy from this test.

okay, now i am off to get ready and go to work!

 

[Luvr of Wabbits and Polar Bears]

:hug:to Winnie for feeling better.

:hug:to you for still getting up to go to work.

 

[katt]

thanks becka.

well, winnie is still on the mend, this morning she wasn't as active as yesterday, but she did take her meds like a really good girl.

me on the other hand is very grumpy and sleepy, and itchy, and now i just bopped myself in the eye, and i am waiting to see it bruise (cause it is already swollen) leave it to me to be clumsy. ugh!

chaucer is doing great though, he doing mad bunny 500's in his cage. because of my back and not-so-joyful mood, he hasn't been out as much the past couple days.

anyway, to anyone who reads this, i am sorry if i don't respond to any emails or pms or such. i just really am not in a good mood

is it monday yet?

 

[pOker]

okay..get ready--check the mail..
I just sent you one gigantic hug!!!!

Uff, I wish it was Monday just for you! Its almost over!!!!

Good luck my dear..You and Winnie need a break--youre both down in the dumps.

 

[katt]

lol thanks hannah!

i wish it was monday too. i feel like such a nasty person right now cause all i am doing is complaining about this and that.

and the worse thing is right now is that i can't clean my apartment, cause whenever i move the itching gets worse, so all i want to do is vacuum before work, and i can't.

okay, i am going to get up, get ready for work, and go make myself a yummy breakfast. maybe that will help my mood!

 

[katt]

so how about an update? i will be honest, i do have a couple chaucer photos, but i don't know if i will upload them tonight or tomorrow night, cause i am already tucked into bed, and my camera is sitting out on the table in the kitchen, and i don't want to get up.

tomorrow is monday! HAPPY DANCE! i cannot WAIT to get this stuff off my back and take a real shower.

it is going to be a good week for me, i can feel it. i have a trainee the next 2 days, and while my job is hard, and most people can't handle it at all, i got to work with this girl for a couple hours on Saturday and she is smart and quick, and i instantly got along with her. she has trained with my normal relief person for a couple days, so i basically just have to refine her training so to speak. get her *hopefully* up to par with what i do (cause the amount of work i do in comparison to my relief is startling), and i hope that she will be ready to go for when i go on vacation (starts the 16th or 17th and i have eleven days off) if she doesn't, then i will end up cutting it short, or simply not going so i can go in and work with her more.

but i am really excited for 11 days off in a row, not having to think about work for that long.

another thing to mention is that i am looking at going to college. a big step for me. i have 4 options i am looking at right now: counseling, dietetics, social work, or something to do with art. the first 3 are my main choices. i have already done a full job shadow with on of the dietitians in my department, and i really loved it, but i would have to go away for college, and i just don't know if that is an option for me. i am planning on also doing a job shadow with a medical social worker (which is my second choice i think, i really like the idea of helping people that need help).

anyway, just thought i would mention that i am going to go to college, and get my degree, and do something productive with my life!

don't have any funny or really good rabbit stories to tell you. chaucer is just chillin and eating (he must be about to grow again) and winnie is hiding from me and the evil meds. she has been doing this all day. i am sure she will continue to hide from me until i fall asleep and she climbs into bed with me. lol

oh, and i am also really excited cause i got one of the guys at work to sit down for photos! i have a painting in mind to start and it has the figure of a guy in it, but none of the guys i know will let me just take random photos of them, so i nosed around and annoyed people until someone agreed!

all in all, we might be sick here, but we are happy!

 

[aurora369]

So would medical social working be working in hospitals with the patients, making sure they get what they need? Any of your options sound really interesting and rewarding. I hope you find a school that makes getting your degree fun and enjoyable.

Hopefully your allergy specialist will have gotten what they need from your patches. I get occasional hives that I think are from fabric softener, and they are so super itchy. I couldn't imagine having a piece of it strapped to my back for 4 days, I think I would go crazy!

Good luck with your trainee!

-Dawn

 

[katt]

aurora369 wrote:

So would medical social working be working in hospitals with the patients, making sure they get what they need? Any of your options sound really interesting and rewarding. I hope you find a school that makes getting your degree fun and enjoyable.

Hopefully your allergy specialist will have gotten what they need from your patches. I get occasional hives that I think are from fabric softener, and they are so super itchy. I couldn't imagine having a piece of it strapped to my back for 4 days, I think I would go crazy!

Good luck with your trainee!

-Dawn

yup, one aspect of social work is medical social work, basically they make sure the the patients are setup to be home, and such. helping the family understand what is going on, and in cases with pediatrics, helping children who are abused and neglected (and elderly as well).

and i am hoping my allergist will have answers, i just have to keep reminding myself that i have less then 12 hours at this point.

the only way i can describe how this feels is like this: imagine you have poison ivy, then you cover it in medical tape. and leave it on for 4 days without itching it or anything. every time i move it flares up a whole new wave of itch. blah. can't wait for this to be over with. but we are hoping that this will lead us to some answers.

allergic reaction=body doesn't feel good= mind does feel good= higher levels of anxiety= higher levels of depression.

this is the steps we are looking at. and it might just be that i am extremely sensitive to this stuff, not actually allergic. which means there isn't much he can do for me (if it is allergies, then they can give me shots to help), but if i am just sensitive, i have one option: find a different job. because in a hospital's kitchen you can't escape the cleaners they use everywhere. i can't even have bleach touch my skin, or lime-away, or the sanitizing solution we use everywhere.

it is hard when you have a daily breakout at work

but anyways, thanks for your wishes of luck with my trainee! i am excited cause now my schedule will go back to somewhat normal and i won't have to keep putting in 54 hour weeks.

 

[katt]

okay, a very quick photo update before i go to sleep (as i am about 1/2 way asleep writing this lol)

first i was playing with the effects on photobucket of this photo i posted before of chaucer and myself:

now for a couple chaucer pics:

^action shot lol

and some of winnie * forewarn to ya'll that she isn't feeling or looking very well, she has tufts of fur coming out all over, but i wanted to post these anyway as it made her very happy to have me sitting with her calling her a pretty little model for my photos*

 

[Cabrissi]

Aw poor Winnie! I hope she's feeling better soon, she makes such an adorable model! Love the picture you did with Chaucer, liked the original too but this is too cute.

 

[katt]

thanks amanda!

well, i am only tossing a quick update before heading out for the day. we are celebrating my roommate birthday today by going out to eat, and going to see alice in wonderland!

but just had to share that chaucer is crazy. so he is out for his daily run right now. and instead of running around he is digging in my dirty laundry. so far he has picked out another tank top, a pair of underwear, and a sweater that he thinks should be *his*.

ahem, am i not the one that buys the clothing? and am i not the one that NEEDS the clothing?

i FINALLY got him down to 1 cami, 2 tank tops, 1 tee shirt, and his blanket in his cage. it took me over a week to slowly wean out all the other clothing he stole from me.

he just really likes clothings. my clothing.

my rabbit is a total freak

but i love him. he has moved from the clothing and is now doing mad binkies all over my room (winnie is out taking a morning nap on the couch), he runs around binkies a few times then jumps on the bed, nuzzles my arm, gives it a lick, then jumps back down to do more running around and binkies. and repeats the process over and over again.

okay, time to get ready for the day!

 

[katt]

not a bunny update, but i have some other random photos!

first this is our new fish: one eyed willy (you can only guess why he is named that)

and here is one of me

and my new ruby red slippers! (every girl should own a pair, now i can click my heels together on bad dates and say "there is no place like home" and poof! i will be home. . . okay, maybe not, but they were way to cute to pass up)

other then that, all i have to say is that we went and saw Alice in Wonderland, and it was AMAZING. not really a kids movie, but sooo good! Tim Burton and Johnny Depp really outdid themselves!

and now i am back home, tucked into bed. i cannot believe how sick i am, this just keeps going on and on. blah. i have all this stupid chest and sinus stuff going on. looks like another round of antibiotics for me!

 

[katt]

my super fast update for today.

I am in a blissful state of "sleepy but sugar buzzed" as I had an terrible day at work and self medicated by pigging out on a box of chocolates that I bought myself on the way home from work.

yum, chocolate hazelnut truffles

and btw- winnie keeps trying to steal one.

anyway, it is like 2:40 am and I NEED TO SLEEP!

better update with some bunny stories tomorrow.

only 3 1/2 more days till my vacation from work!!! (and I am going to do nothing but sit around at home in my PJs for 11 days getting fat off of junk food and watching Gilmore Girls. . . couldn't be happier at the prospect)

 

[katt]

hhmmm. . .

well, to update life has been. . . intersting.

I honestly wasn't sure if I would post ANY of this in my blog, because while I am normally open and honest and vocal about my life, the past couple weeks have taken a toll on me, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to talk about all this on here, or honestly, anywhere. Sometimes, it is easier for the short term to run from the issues you face, but in the end, they alway. . . ALWAYS find you. Normally when you don't expect it.

First let me state, for those that might not know. That I suffer from some rather heavy mental disorders. And a huge part of my day to day life is simply accepting and working with those problems.

For instance, most people have no issues doing a simple task like grocery shopping. For me, it is a nightmare. I can ONLY go to a handful of stores, I have to know their layout and the 'feel' of them. Normally I have to have my Ipod with me for music, or be on the phone with someone for the majority of the trip. If I don't, I have really high anxiety. Odd place, Random people, Lots of colors and lights, and choices. Ugh. It gets rather annoying.

This also proves true in other aspects of my life. I rarely try new restaurants, I hardly go to people's houses that I don't know very well, I can only go to certain bars in the odd chance that I go out for a night of fun. Sometimes my life feels so limited by my anxiety that it gets me really down. Now I *could* take oodles of meds that zombie me out enough for no problems in all these places. But what is the point of life then? There is no living when you are on all the drugs (and I have been on them before).

Things have to be done a certain way, kept in a certain spot, and be used at certain times.

This is why I am the way I am, act the way I do, and Live in a separate 'world' from others most of the time.

I am saying all this, writing all this out on my bunny blog because this is what is on my mind right now. Mostly because my job has gotten very hard for me, because the way I do things has certain people at my job not happy. They don't want the order, the system that has been put in place. Even if my system fallows protocol. Even if my managers praise me for the job I do and how things run.

And it honestly hurts, it hurts to have the people that you work with, spend 40 hours a week with, hate you and not understand you.

So I am feeling a little stressed right now, in fact, I am feeling a lotta stressed right now. It at times feels like I am struggling on so many levels, that I sometimes lose sight of the basic day to day. When I have all these towers of things going on in my life, and one gets knocked down, it starts a chain reaction. And holding them all up tends to wear you out.

So why am I saying all this? Why do I want anyone to read this? Because there are people like me out in this world. You see them day to day, and most seem perfectly normal, but underneath all that clutter of fake normalcy is a whole world of 'crazy'. And if I can shed some light to anyone that might give someone like me a hard time, I feel like I have done something good with the world.

This isn't an easy life. I spend most of my time in a state of panic. I have to balance taking meds that make me sick and staying sane. I have to do and act a certain way. I have to be careful who I trust and who I let into my life. I have to avoid toxic people and places. It really gets to me when someone makes a comment about how mental disorders are 'all in your head' and they really aren't there. They ARE there, and yes, they might be in my head, but they are very much real.

I work every day on this, every second of every day. I watch my diet, avoid certain things, and I have to get up and move every day. This can be debilitating. Sometimes it would be easier to just stay in bed, turn off my phone, and ignore the world. But you can't do that. You can't shut yourself out. So instead every day I get up and move forward. I focus on positive things in life, I do things that make me happy, and I avoid the 'negatives'.

I don't ever look for pity in my life, I don't want a 'poor me' situation with violins and tears. I only ask for respect. Understand that I am going through a lot, and am trying to keep it all together, and I will understand the same for you. That sometimes I stumble and fall, and could use a hand to get back up, and that I would be there for anyone needing the same.

Okay, so I guess I am done with my rant/ramble. I have just had a lot going on in my life that is making this hard. That is testing my strength. Needed to get it all out somewhere.

Sorry to anyone that decided to read this.

 

[Cabrissi]

I hope these people lay off a bit Katie... it is not easy and people think that because a disability isn't visible it's not really there. I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder w/ PTSD, as well as a vestibular (balance) disorder and hearing loss. I know how utterly insensitive some people can be despite you going a hard slog and doing your best! "Goodonya" for the reminder that there is usually more to people and more going on for people than you might see at first glance, I think the world would be a better place if more people remembered that! Sorry to hear it's so rough atm, I find the animals (and in my case my kids) are my sanity restorers when crap gets a bit much, hopefully you can snuggle with the buns and feel a bit better as well.