Nela
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I took a big hitrecently that left me quite heartbroken. All of you know I haven't the best relationship with my family but things are worse than I thought. I thought we were working on it but turns out my parents have pretty much said nothing but bad things about me and my siblings. Not only that but my father went and bought himself a muscle car. Remember how just last week or so I was posting about them playing the money card when it came to the cat? I'm not stupid you know. Anyway, I feel really really hurt. They told me they couldn't get their passports because of money. I mean, I don't expect them to spend thousands to come see me regularly. However, it would have been nice to know that if ever something happened to me, they would have had their passport to rush over. It's now clear that I would be on my own. I cannot even explain how sad that made me. My brother is starting to really feel the effects of everything as well. It makes me sad to know that he will have the same experience. It really hurts. I spent over a week crying. I'm thinking that I may need to cut the cords completely right now. Especially since they are only pretending to want this. I feel lost.
Jeff can't make up his mind about the dog so I gave up. I told him if ever one day he makes up his mind, he can let me know. At this point, I wouldn't want to have a dog that he might resent. I'm sad because I really long for the companionship, someone to go walk with, play with, etc. But it's not going to happen. At least not now. So I am diving into arts and trying to keep my head busy right now. I just cannot allow myself to keep thinking about everything around me.
Maybelle is still in the hutch. It drives me bonkers to see her there. We'll go pick up something to block off the hedge properly (we were using the playpen gates and bricks)so she cannot get out of our yard. The neighbors assured us that it was no problem and that the kids love seeing her but I would be mortified if she attacked one of their bunnies while it is out or even bit the kids while they try to pet her. Knowing her personality, I think it's just too much of a risk.
Rolo still has his litter corner in his nestbox. I think he is absolutely silly. I don't know what he has in mind but it doesn't seem to be working. However, I don't have the heart to tell him so I just giggle at his goofiness.
When Jeff's father was here with the family, a family member gave me a bouquet of flowers... They were on my night table and I kept telling myself I should throw them out... Well, last night, when I was going to bed, I spotted a caterpillar trying to eat a card from my best friend that I keep on my table. The weather is kind of chilly and spring is not exactly settled in yet so I wasn't sure I really wanted to put him out yet like Jeff suggested. He's beside me right now poking holes in a tomato I gave him. I set him up in the 'snail nursery' box I had. I knew that box would always come in handy. I've put some stuff in there and I'm going to go poke around to see what his needs are. I've also put in two snail friends... We'll see what happens. I have to find them all names now.
See what happens when you don't have a dog?
(I'll upload pics in a few)
I'll PM you in a few.
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I took a big hitrecently that left me quite heartbroken. All of you know I haven't the best relationship with my family but things are worse than I thought. I thought we were working on it but turns out my parents have pretty much said nothing but bad things about me and my siblings. Not only that but my father went and bought himself a muscle car. Remember how just last week or so I was posting about them playing the money card when it came to the cat? I'm not stupid you know. Anyway, I feel really really hurt. They told me they couldn't get their passports because of money. I mean, I don't expect them to spend thousands to come see me regularly. However, it would have been nice to know that if ever something happened to me, they would have had their passport to rush over. It's now clear that I would be on my own. I cannot even explain how sad that made me. My brother is starting to really feel the effects of everything as well. It makes me sad to know that he will have the same experience. It really hurts. I spent over a week crying. I'm thinking that I may need to cut the cords completely right now. Especially since they are only pretending to want this. I feel lost.
Jeff can't make up his mind about the dog so I gave up. I told him if ever one day he makes up his mind, he can let me know. At this point, I wouldn't want to have a dog that he might resent. I'm sad because I really long for the companionship, someone to go walk with, play with, etc. But it's not going to happen. At least not now. So I am diving into arts and trying to keep my head busy right now. I just cannot allow myself to keep thinking about everything around me.
Maybelle is still in the hutch. It drives me bonkers to see her there. We'll go pick up something to block off the hedge properly (we were using the playpen gates and bricks)so she cannot get out of our yard. The neighbors assured us that it was no problem and that the kids love seeing her but I would be mortified if she attacked one of their bunnies while it is out or even bit the kids while they try to pet her. Knowing her personality, I think it's just too much of a risk.
Rolo still has his litter corner in his nestbox. I think he is absolutely silly. I don't know what he has in mind but it doesn't seem to be working. However, I don't have the heart to tell him so I just giggle at his goofiness.
When Jeff's father was here with the family, a family member gave me a bouquet of flowers... They were on my night table and I kept telling myself I should throw them out... Well, last night, when I was going to bed, I spotted a caterpillar trying to eat a card from my best friend that I keep on my table. The weather is kind of chilly and spring is not exactly settled in yet so I wasn't sure I really wanted to put him out yet like Jeff suggested. He's beside me right now poking holes in a tomato I gave him. I set him up in the 'snail nursery' box I had. I knew that box would always come in handy. I've put some stuff in there and I'm going to go poke around to see what his needs are. I've also put in two snail friends... We'll see what happens. I have to find them all names now.
See what happens when you don't have a dog?
(I'll upload pics in a few)