Exactly one year ago today is the day we lost our Zeus.
I can't believe it's already been a year without him. I still think about him every single day, still wish he never got sick and still wonder if I had done things diffrently if he would still be with us today. I can think about him, and look at pictures of him, without crying now (usually). I remember all the good times like when we first brought him home, the time he stole cake right out of my fience's mouth, how hyper and happy he always was. I miss having him sit on my lap, and how he use to lay his head on the floor next to me when he wanted me to rub his forhead. I even miss how he use to always find ways to cause trouble, even when I thought I had bunny proofed the room 100 times over. How he use to run up behind me and nip my butt when I was sitting in his room, then he would run away and hide and pretend it wasn't him. I miss how he use to sneak into the mini fridge to steal carrots and treats, how I had to keep all my magnets on the top part of the fridge or else he would steal them and hide them in a pile under my bed.
I miss seeing Zeus and Barnaby snuggled up next to each other, playing around together, and grooming. I miss the way Zeus use to love to climb up on my bed and sleep with me, the way his whiskers tickled me in the face in the mornings. Zeus was my constant conpanion through most of my college years, some of the most difficult years of my life. But even when I was alone, I could never feel completly alone when I had a veery happy bunny binkying around my room to go home too every night. All the stress would just seem to melt away when I played chase with him, pet his soft fur, or snuggled up in bed to watch a movie with him.
I miss Zeus' amazing sense of humor. How so much personality could be packed into that little 2 lb body I will never understand. I didn't relize it at the time, but Zeus was my heart bunny. I doupt I will ever find another like him, even if I spent a life time searching. I only had 2 short years with him, but even if I had known what would happen in the end, I would never take back those years for anything. I am a better person for having known him, and because of him I have been able to help countless other rabbits, the firsts on the list being Zeus' best friend Barnaby, and then my other two rabbits Berry and Ziggy.
The day Zeus died, not even 2 minutes before the vet called to tell me that he didn't survive his surgery, it started to pour outside and thunder. I still think of my sweet little blue bunny every time it thunders. I use to hate the thunder, but now I think of Zeus and smile.
All I have left of my Zeus are the memories, photos, a few of his old toys. I keep his memorial picture on top of my bunny's cage, it comforts me to know that in a small way he can be with them. I wish he had lived long enough to make it to the new apartment with us, to see the awesome bunny room I set up for them, and to meet his new brother and sister.
But I know that Zeus wouldn't want me to be sad. So, instead of this being a sad day for me, I'm going to try to make it a happy one. I'm going to spend some extra time in the bunny room with my trio, give them extra love and food and attention, because I know all too well that you never know how long your going to have with them. Everyone give their bunnies an extra head rub today, an extra treat, an extra hour of play time. Appreciate every second you have with your babies while you still have them. Don't take a single day for granted.
Zeus ~ Although you have been gone a year now, I still feel like you are a part of my life. Thank you for sharing your life with me, I hope you enjoyed it. I'm sorry if there was anything I could have done better. I hope you understand that everything I did, especially all the meds and vet trips near the end, where to try to help you. There will never be another that will be able to fill the space you left in my heart. I don't know what happens when things die, but I truely hope that you are still around somewhere, happy and care free. I hope that we will meet again someday. I will always love you.