I know, the timing was all bad. It was arranged to get her a couple weeks prior if anyone we knew was going down that way or the owner was coming up this, and she was kind of far away. Grandma was going on holiday to visit her stepbrother and his new wife, so they picked her up for me, as they had to go past where Ceara was living.
I took the longest drive of my life this morning, I'm actually not allowed to be driving right now because of fines I got the other day so I was scared, to try and take her back. I went about it all wrong and should have arranged something with them first. They are moving and cutting down on buns so were really angry with me.
It was meant to be this huge happy surprise and make a thread on here and bla bla bla and Sakura got sick at the same time it was all going on. But because she seemed to recover so well, I didn't do anything sooner about finding out if Ceara could go back - I assumed, as you do, that my pet would be fine and things would be fine and they could bond in a couple of months once Ceara gets spayed.
I know I messed up, I'm useless like I keep saying. I do wrong things all the time. I just can't seem to ever do the right thing.
I don't want rabbits at all, any more, ever. Why would I want to subject some poor animal to what's obviously a cursed and useless owner?
At the same time, I owe it to Ceara to do the right thing, I just don't know what that right thing is.
I hate hate hate hate hate this situation and I can't even think about another bunny right at this moment.
I'm sorry to rant and rave and I'd best not post here I guess if I'm going to be like this because I can't see past my own selfish grief right now.