[size="-3"]The forum has been seriously bonkers for me for the past week. This is what I was going to post.
About what happened:
Nuge was with her the entire time when we were at the vet. We had the vet euthanize her right with us, because I wanted to be there with her.
The vet gave her anesthetic in her rump, she had been grinding her teeth, purring until she started to fall asleep. Nuge snuggled up to her, seeming to understand what was going on. He started grooming her (he hasn't in a long time) and snuggled next to her.
The vet came back fifteen minutes later, giving the anesthetic plenty of time to set in, but she was definitely asleep within three minutes, her body limp but breathing slowly. We laid her down on the table, Nuge still sitting next to her. Dr. Zorn located her heart and gave her an injection, and listened to her with a stethoscope. She said that she was gone and my friend and I just started bawling.
Nuge was still snuggled next to her, and would occasionally sit up and seem to talk to us. We cried for a long time, and then we waited till it seemed like Nuge was done saying goodbye to her.
I went to get Dr. Zorn and asked her what I should do. She said that since we are going with cremation, then she will take Brigitte to the back, where she will wait till next week. The crematorium will pick her up then, and return her in about another week, where they will give me a call to let me know.
The receptionist said that I can take care of paperwork when I come back to get her. That small convenience was a big help in just relaxing.
She doesn't hurt anymore. I have to keep telling myself that. I have ordered a nice wooden urn, with a place for a photograph of her in it.
I keep crying. I'm so glad I'm done with this semester. Thank you all for your support and help in helping her to get to the best place possible.[/size]