Luvmyzoocrew
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This makes me just ill to have to post here, I have to admit that i dont come in here very often because it is too sad to read about the buns that have passed and now i am afraid that i will never , ever, come in here because i have now experienced the heartache and pain that so many other have experienced, and it SUCKS. But here it goes
Sooty was sent to the Rainbow bridge on March 6, 2009. I woke in the morning to notice that he didnt want to eat, in the year and a half that i had had him eating was one of his favorite things to do and he always acted like i was starving him, which wasnt the truth. THursday was different he just sat there, i went straight to the infirmary and posted for help on what it could be, with the way he was acting i thought for sure it was stasis. To err on the side of caution, and because he has teeth issues , i wanted to make sure that there was nothing else going on so i made an appointment for 1230 that day to see our vet. At 1230 my life was shattered by the news that it was a tumor in his stomach?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! i so wished it was stasis, although it can be serious it is something that we cold have worked through. I struggled with what to do, but the ultimate goal i wanted was for him not to suffer, if he was going to suffer then i wanted his suffering to end peacefully. The vet said that they would treat him and re evaluate in the morning , so at about dinner time i went to visit him, i didnt want him left there over night wondering why no one was there for him, boy was that visit hard, and the next day the p hone rang. I looked at the caller id and it was the vet office and the tears just started pouring out of my head and my heart ached so bad, and i got worse once the vet concluded that it was no better and the blood worked too supported what originally was thought, now i have a decision, and what a horrible decision to have to make. Animals should come with and experiation date so that you know if the decision that you are making is the one that should be made.
If i thought the previous night was hard, i didnt know the half of it, that visit was the most gutt wrenching one, knowing that it was my last visit with him, that i would never see him again, and as i type this it is bringing tears to me again. I sat there and talked to him telling him how much i loved him and how much i was going to miss him, and how it wasnt fair that his stay with me was so short. I told him i was angry that it was the way it had to be, and that his previous owners didnt deserve him, and that i shou ld have had the time that they had. The vet kept telling me that it was ok to be sad and to feel that way, and that it was the rig ht decisiion for him that he just wasnt himself and it was the best thing to do for him, she was even crying. She kept telling me how much she new i loved him and so on and so on. It was nice to see her feel sad with me because i knew that she really understood what i was going through. It didnt make it any easier but i had to do it. Leaving was the hardest part, once i left it was over and he was gone. after about an hour or two, sorry the last two days have been such a blur, i told her it was time and i gave him over to her and hugged her and we left. He is gone and will never come back and i am still dealing with this. Today i am off to walmart where i had two pics of him made and i will get a frame and put them in so that i will always have a picture of him in the house. Everyone talks about thier heart bunnies and he was mine, dont get me wrong i love Belle but i was quite smitten with him. Even though he didnt let me pick him up, i still loved him. I believe that all things happen for a reason and sometimes we will never know why but i think Sooty was sent to me to dye with dignity. Sooty's life started out with people, who i hope , had good intentions on loving thier cute black lop, but that didnt last long. Sooty was disposed of with household trash where his guradian angel sent someone along to get him out of the trash and get him the care that he deserved. That same guardian angle sent me to find him on Petfinder , and that is where our life started together, it was meant to be and something kept drawing me to him. Had he still been with his previous owners i know for sure that he would have died out in hutch alone without hugs, loves and kisses. Instead he lived 1 1/2 more years with us, where he was treated like the king he was, and he died with dignity, he wasnt alone, and he was covered in kisses and tear. It is sad to think that he was sent to me to dye but i am glad that he was with me and got the love he deserved from day one. R I P Sooty , know that on March 6th a piece of my heart was taken out and sent with you. See you on the other side, and be ready to be covered in kisses some more.
sorry this is so long and if you got to the end thank you
I want to thank everyone who responded to the infirmary thread and replied thier prayers and condolences, and everyone who pm'd privately, it all means ssssssoooooo much to me.
Sooty was sent to the Rainbow bridge on March 6, 2009. I woke in the morning to notice that he didnt want to eat, in the year and a half that i had had him eating was one of his favorite things to do and he always acted like i was starving him, which wasnt the truth. THursday was different he just sat there, i went straight to the infirmary and posted for help on what it could be, with the way he was acting i thought for sure it was stasis. To err on the side of caution, and because he has teeth issues , i wanted to make sure that there was nothing else going on so i made an appointment for 1230 that day to see our vet. At 1230 my life was shattered by the news that it was a tumor in his stomach?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! i so wished it was stasis, although it can be serious it is something that we cold have worked through. I struggled with what to do, but the ultimate goal i wanted was for him not to suffer, if he was going to suffer then i wanted his suffering to end peacefully. The vet said that they would treat him and re evaluate in the morning , so at about dinner time i went to visit him, i didnt want him left there over night wondering why no one was there for him, boy was that visit hard, and the next day the p hone rang. I looked at the caller id and it was the vet office and the tears just started pouring out of my head and my heart ached so bad, and i got worse once the vet concluded that it was no better and the blood worked too supported what originally was thought, now i have a decision, and what a horrible decision to have to make. Animals should come with and experiation date so that you know if the decision that you are making is the one that should be made.
If i thought the previous night was hard, i didnt know the half of it, that visit was the most gutt wrenching one, knowing that it was my last visit with him, that i would never see him again, and as i type this it is bringing tears to me again. I sat there and talked to him telling him how much i loved him and how much i was going to miss him, and how it wasnt fair that his stay with me was so short. I told him i was angry that it was the way it had to be, and that his previous owners didnt deserve him, and that i shou ld have had the time that they had. The vet kept telling me that it was ok to be sad and to feel that way, and that it was the rig ht decisiion for him that he just wasnt himself and it was the best thing to do for him, she was even crying. She kept telling me how much she new i loved him and so on and so on. It was nice to see her feel sad with me because i knew that she really understood what i was going through. It didnt make it any easier but i had to do it. Leaving was the hardest part, once i left it was over and he was gone. after about an hour or two, sorry the last two days have been such a blur, i told her it was time and i gave him over to her and hugged her and we left. He is gone and will never come back and i am still dealing with this. Today i am off to walmart where i had two pics of him made and i will get a frame and put them in so that i will always have a picture of him in the house. Everyone talks about thier heart bunnies and he was mine, dont get me wrong i love Belle but i was quite smitten with him. Even though he didnt let me pick him up, i still loved him. I believe that all things happen for a reason and sometimes we will never know why but i think Sooty was sent to me to dye with dignity. Sooty's life started out with people, who i hope , had good intentions on loving thier cute black lop, but that didnt last long. Sooty was disposed of with household trash where his guradian angel sent someone along to get him out of the trash and get him the care that he deserved. That same guardian angle sent me to find him on Petfinder , and that is where our life started together, it was meant to be and something kept drawing me to him. Had he still been with his previous owners i know for sure that he would have died out in hutch alone without hugs, loves and kisses. Instead he lived 1 1/2 more years with us, where he was treated like the king he was, and he died with dignity, he wasnt alone, and he was covered in kisses and tear. It is sad to think that he was sent to me to dye but i am glad that he was with me and got the love he deserved from day one. R I P Sooty , know that on March 6th a piece of my heart was taken out and sent with you. See you on the other side, and be ready to be covered in kisses some more.
sorry this is so long and if you got to the end thank you
I want to thank everyone who responded to the infirmary thread and replied thier prayers and condolences, and everyone who pm'd privately, it all means ssssssoooooo much to me.
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