Luvmyzoocrew
Well-Known Member
On December 28 Buzz was sent to the rainbow bridge :*( She was just recently diagnosed with Chronic Renial failure, but for the most part she was holding her own. I was hoping to put some weight on her as she had gotten ssssssoooo skinny, but she wasnt really eating, i went to feeding her every four hours and then she didnt even want that. I started cooking her chicken and pasta, and she ate that for a little while and then slacked off, so i went shopping and i got ground meat, ground pork, ground turkey and tried boiling that up with some rice and some pasta and she wasnt interested. I was at one point syringe feeding her, and doing sub q fluids for her, but it was not fair. She was skin and bones, and i am not exaggerating, she only weighed 26 lbs when she got out of the hospital (the week before christmas she was in to have a mass removed from the top of her head and to be on I V fluids) I had finally come to the decision that she needed to be at rest, this was not fair to her, she was frail, and sick and i couldnt keep her alive for "me" . So on the 28th we went and had her put to sleep and i have to say that was the most awful thing i have ever had to do, i dont want to play god and that is what it felt like. Deciding whether she lived or died. She is happy now, not hurting, not sick , not skin and bones. She came to me in a dream last night and was peppy and happy, and missing me. I miss her
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