Thanks for the kind thoughts, Angieluv and Jemm.
Ned has gotten worse since I last posted (as expected), but the nystagmus is not yet severe and he can stand as long as he doesn't get excited (which is very easy to do- opening the cage door, walking by, him hearing the other bunnies all get him excited). So I decided to go to work. It was only 4 hours. I give a type of therapy to children with autism and didn't want my little boy for today to have his therapy canceled. Unfortunately, he was having a rough day too and started having a tantrum and crying after about half an hour. Normally I can handle these fine, but with the stress and sadness over Ned combined with seeing this little boy upset, I started crying, too. My boss is an animal lover and she sent me home to be with Neddie.
I stopped at the way home to get some fabric to make Ned a Christmas ornament. That might seem like a really weird thing to do, but it's important to me that all the bunnies have their own Christmas ornament and they have to get it before they die. My first bunny got his after he died (actually, I bought it when he was still alive and well, the day after Christmas, and decided to put it on the tree the next year, but he died a few months later) and I always look at that ornament with sadness. So today I will make Neddie his own Christmas ornament. Because of his balance issues, being picked up and held is very stressful for him, so cuddling with him doesn't help him feel better. When the balance and nystagmus get REALLY bad, being held by me will be the only way he won't roll because I hold him tight, but until it gets that bed, holding does not really help him. It's hard to not be able to hold him when he's getting sick and I know what's coming! But making this ornament is something I can do for him.
When I got home, I called the vet again and was able to better explain what's going on with Ned to the head receptionist. She was very sympathetic and said she would talk to the main vet (the owner of the clinic and Ned's back up vet, since his regular vet is out of town- this vet treated his first ear infection so she knows him) and see if they can somehow squeeze us in tomorrow even though all the appointments are filled. Going as a walk in and waiting with him in the waiting room until they have a moment to see us is very stressful for a sick bunny like Neddie!
I will keep the thread updated. Going to go pet him. Petting him gets him excited and makes him roll, but I know he likes to see me and get love. I'm torn between wanting to keep everything VERY calm for him (to limit balance attacks), and wanting to show him I love him since he likes to be petted.