bunnybunbunb
Well-Known Member
I never thought I would ever post here. When Blizzard died in 2008 I didn't post, when Candy passed away just over a year ago I did not post, when Z passed in summer and when Bugs passed this fall I never posted. But something is compelling me to post.
This morning at 5:30 AM I went in to feed the bunnies before going to bed. Mousse's condo is level with the sink. She was sitting at the front. She noticed me come in and hopped to the litter box, I expected she was waiting for food. I turned the water on to soften Sway some pellets because it was time to clip her teeth. Seconds after I turned it on I heard thrashing, I looked over and Mousse was kicking and flipping in her box. I opened the door as she seized up. I pulled her out fast, her mouth opened in a scream with no sound and she died. Just like that. That fast. So fast. I did not even have time to speak, so something, say anything, say goodbye.
I was in shock, still am. I just held her staring at her. I slowly walked into the livingroom and told mom. Up until then I was composed but I broke down. I went back in the bathroom and just sat and cried, holding her, while I made Sway's food.
I felt it when she died, I felt her leave. The body no longer looked like her, the face was not hers. Without her in the body the face was no right, it did not look like Mousse. It was not my Mousse but the body was all I had to touch.
I don't know what happened. She convulsed?, seized and died in the matter of seconds. Mom said it was good she went fast, painless. But I am selfish, it was to fast for my mind to comprehend.
I am saying goodbye now since I did not have the time to when you left. I will miss you and I will never be the same. Goodbye Mousse, see you again!
This morning at 5:30 AM I went in to feed the bunnies before going to bed. Mousse's condo is level with the sink. She was sitting at the front. She noticed me come in and hopped to the litter box, I expected she was waiting for food. I turned the water on to soften Sway some pellets because it was time to clip her teeth. Seconds after I turned it on I heard thrashing, I looked over and Mousse was kicking and flipping in her box. I opened the door as she seized up. I pulled her out fast, her mouth opened in a scream with no sound and she died. Just like that. That fast. So fast. I did not even have time to speak, so something, say anything, say goodbye.
I was in shock, still am. I just held her staring at her. I slowly walked into the livingroom and told mom. Up until then I was composed but I broke down. I went back in the bathroom and just sat and cried, holding her, while I made Sway's food.
I felt it when she died, I felt her leave. The body no longer looked like her, the face was not hers. Without her in the body the face was no right, it did not look like Mousse. It was not my Mousse but the body was all I had to touch.
I don't know what happened. She convulsed?, seized and died in the matter of seconds. Mom said it was good she went fast, painless. But I am selfish, it was to fast for my mind to comprehend.
I am saying goodbye now since I did not have the time to when you left. I will miss you and I will never be the same. Goodbye Mousse, see you again!
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