Mooy was a handsome and sweet rabbit at a shelter where I volunteer. He was given up because his previous owners no longer had time for him. Though he was initially shy, he warmed up right away and was a joy to be around. He even let me cuddle with him.
Last week when I went in, I noticed he had a large mass on the side of his face. It turned out to be an abscess.
Part of me feels guilty.
This was the vet's notes:
Left submandibular abscess confirmed by aspiration of thick purulent material, r/o secondary to penetrating foreign body vs dental dz or osteomyelitis of the jaw. No abnormalities in the oral cavity noted, but difficult to examine. Attempted to lance and drain the ventral most aspect of the abscess with #10 and #15 blade, no material extruded (salivary glands visible) closed 1cm incision with two surgical staples.
Mooy died under surgery today. And somehow I feel like it's my fault- that I should have noticed it earlier. I only met him briefly two weeks ago, and when I first took hiss picture- I see it now. It was small, but it was forming. And it makes me wonder- had I noticed it then, would he still be alive?
And it makes me nervous, because my own rabbit has to undergo surgery every 2-3 months because of his dental malocclusion.
But more than anything- it makes me sad that he wasn't able to have a better and loving home in the time he was here.
Should I be angry at myself, or others who hadn't noticed it before me? Or the system itself? I'm not trying to accuse anyone of accountability, but I'm only there once a week. Maybe I'm angry at the fact that it could/might have been prevented?
Thanks for listening everyone,
and RIP Mooy.
You'll always have a place in my heart.