Sometimes it's hard when someone hits the nail on the head, but also it can be useful.
What I do wonder is if you hand over a share of their care to your husband will you still blame yourself so much and feel that you have to carry all the responsibility? Would you trust your husband?
This forum is here for people to use as they wish. You have to put yourself first and if that means being here sporadically, or only when you need help, then that's ok. I personally am here sporadically, and only when I can be. You should only do what you feel able to do, or what you want to do.
I think it is very easy to turn grief into a crusade, and I'm wondering if maybe you haven't fully grieved for your kitten and everything you went through together?
Stasis is a tricky thing to grasp, and I think when you go into panic mode, whatever grasp of it you have goes out the window and then you're faced with racing, irrational thoughts and utter panic as to the outcome.
I guess that's where ways to manage your anxiety come into play, so that you can slow down those thoughts, and start to look at the situation rationally and take into account everything you can see.
I wonder if Emma is hypersensitive. I have a guy called Star, he is most definitely hyper sensitive and reacts very much more to things than anyone else (a bit like me, lol). If I am feeling low, he will pick up on it and his appetite will wane, thus leading to smaller poos. If he is moulting he will get smaller poos. If something slightly different happens from his normal routine he loses his appetite and again his poos go. He is very in touch with me, which impacts on him. I do wonder if maybe Emma's problem might not be physical, but be sense related which causes the gut issues. If she is sensitive and picks up on your anxiety, that might make her situation worse and creates a gut problem, if that makes sense, just through lack of something (be it food, water, hay, etc) caused by stress. I don't know, I'm just speculating, and it might be that you just have to get used to poo of various sizes.
Another option is that depending on the size of her poo, and how small it is, it might be that that is normal for her, and the bigger ones are actually the abnormal ones (just to throw something else into the mix).
Your last sentence is probably one of the most important things you have addressed.
Please let us know how you get on at the vets.
What I do wonder is if you hand over a share of their care to your husband will you still blame yourself so much and feel that you have to carry all the responsibility? Would you trust your husband?
This forum is here for people to use as they wish. You have to put yourself first and if that means being here sporadically, or only when you need help, then that's ok. I personally am here sporadically, and only when I can be. You should only do what you feel able to do, or what you want to do.
I think it is very easy to turn grief into a crusade, and I'm wondering if maybe you haven't fully grieved for your kitten and everything you went through together?
Stasis is a tricky thing to grasp, and I think when you go into panic mode, whatever grasp of it you have goes out the window and then you're faced with racing, irrational thoughts and utter panic as to the outcome.
I guess that's where ways to manage your anxiety come into play, so that you can slow down those thoughts, and start to look at the situation rationally and take into account everything you can see.
I wonder if Emma is hypersensitive. I have a guy called Star, he is most definitely hyper sensitive and reacts very much more to things than anyone else (a bit like me, lol). If I am feeling low, he will pick up on it and his appetite will wane, thus leading to smaller poos. If he is moulting he will get smaller poos. If something slightly different happens from his normal routine he loses his appetite and again his poos go. He is very in touch with me, which impacts on him. I do wonder if maybe Emma's problem might not be physical, but be sense related which causes the gut issues. If she is sensitive and picks up on your anxiety, that might make her situation worse and creates a gut problem, if that makes sense, just through lack of something (be it food, water, hay, etc) caused by stress. I don't know, I'm just speculating, and it might be that you just have to get used to poo of various sizes.
Another option is that depending on the size of her poo, and how small it is, it might be that that is normal for her, and the bigger ones are actually the abnormal ones (just to throw something else into the mix).
Your last sentence is probably one of the most important things you have addressed.
This is so true. You need to look after yourself in order to be able to look after them, and looking after yourself will also mean you will be a better rabbit owner too, because you will be more balanced. If you chose to ignore your problems and not get help and you couldn't cope with the buns, as unfortunate as it is, that would be your fault, however, if you do everything you can to help yourself, then that wouldn't be an issue because then you have taken care of every aspect you can, which is all anyone can do.Because if I'm completely shot, then I've nothing to even offer my animals.
Please let us know how you get on at the vets.