We lost another flee-lop this morning and the two newborns from the feed store aren't doing very well.
I'm trying to figure out how to say what I want to say....I don't want to come across callous - because I'm honestly not that type of person.
Oh well - I'll just trust that those of you who read my blog know me enough to understand.
I tried to put Fiona on top of the babies today. We tried holding her on her back yesterday and putting them on her and she was freaking out - I was afraid she was going to scream. She was kicking VERY hard - even with three of us working with her.
Today - as I put her in a basket with them (so I could spread them out a bit under her) - she continued to freak out and was kicking and just very very upset.
I cried a bit - out of frustration - but also out of concern - for her.
I got to thinking about it. First of all, in my opinion she was too young to be bred. Within a few days of giving birth, she was taken to the feed store, put in a cage with other rabbits (one of whom gave birth in the cage), taken to a new place, put in a new cage (twice), given a nestbox she knew nothing about, and is with strangers and eating strange food.
With all of this going on - while she is curious about us and comes to the front of the cage to see us - she almost flinches when she's touched.
I can continue to try to "FORCE" her to feed these babies - or I can be willing to let them pass (if it happens) - in order to build a relationship with her.
I don't know why the babies are passing - I'm not sure if we've not been feeding them often enough - or stimulating them enough to poo and pee - or if it is a problem with the formula. The first few had jelly like poos when they passed - meaning it was intestional. The last couple were really thin - even though I'd been feeding them good.
I just don't know.
I sat in the rabbitry for a bit with Fiona's door opened and just watched her - and she watched me for a bit too. Then I opened Harmony's cage and loved on her - and then I went to CJ's cage and loved on her.
I realized something.
My does (and my bucks) - love me - or at least they trust me and they have a relationship with me. They might not like it if I pick them up and they may struggle a bit due to a fear of falling...but they don't struggle out of a fear of me.
When I open their cages - they come and cuddle into my hands and let me pet them and love on them. They CRAVE that love and I have to spend time petting them when I feed them because they want that more than food sometimes.
Working with Fiona though is far different. She's literally terrified of whatever we do. She's curious about us - but touch her and she flinches - and as I said - at one point I thought she was going to scream.
She is curious about the babies - she looks at them in the nestbox. A couple of times she's sort of pawed at them a bit. She hasn't hurt them at all.
But its like she doesn't understand what to do now that she hags them.
So my decision is...
I'm going to feed them by hand - but leave them with her as long as possible. If nothing else - maybe she can socialize them once they come out of the nestbox. She shows no aggression towards them at all.
I'm also going to work on giving her treats (Adam will love that since the neighbor of a rabbit I'm working with always gets the treats too) and getting her used to me - and hopefully - used to my touch.
In some ways I feel bad - I used to tell Art, "If I ever stop crying over babies dying - its time for me to quit breeding".
But I've learned that death is a part of life - and that not all rabbits can make it.
I will do everything I can for these kits - don't get me wrong - and I'm really hoping the two flee lops can make it.
But I'm gonna focus my "mothering" on Fiona...and getting her to trust me.
She has such potential to be a loving bunny - she is so curious about people. She just needs to learn trust.
Oh - and her sister is ok with being picked up and held and her sister isn't terrified (I have more pictures to share later). So that is good.
And the New Zealands....I'm pulling my hair out about those two girls. They're so HUGE but I can't palpate worth beans.
I need to take them out and start handling them - even if only to socialize them - but believe it or not - they scare me. They've not been socialized before....not handled much (but some).
Oh well - enough of that.
By the way - if I seem sad - I'm really not. I'm ok with things - mostly.
I'm going to focus on the positive - loving the girls and feeding the babies - and then just not worry about the rest.
Oh - and I mentioned to Art that y'all thought I should rescue.
I won't share his response....he was half asleep fortunately but he wasn't exactly positive. He was like, 'Yeah....right....like you don't have enough people already giving you rabbits you didn't need...".
Maybe that would've been a good time to ask again for a pet skunk???