I realized something important tonight, as I've been unable to sleep and am waiting for Advil to kick in for some seriously achy joints...so I thought I should share...
I realized that whether this thing works out with Tucker or not, we will be okay and things will work out somehow.
I realized that one of the huge things that made me want to jump at the chance to adopt Tucker was the fact that I've wanted a lionhead buck for so long now, and had so many opportunities to do so fall through...so finally holding one, and having the chance to take him home really hit my heart.
I also realized that I don't want to adopt a bunny in a situation like this, so if this woman comes to me and says yes to my adopting him, I'm going to ask for some time and that she and I really fix things between us somehow. It just feels wrong to adopt a bun from someone this way...not to mention, I will be seeing her around, and relations really need to be better than this between us.
Another thing: We were making some financial sacrifices to adopt him in the time period she'd asked...and I just don't think we should do that at this point. We have other things we really need to spend that money on right now. So if she comes to me and says she's changed her mind, are we still interested in adopting him...I'm going to have to say, "Sure...but it'll be at least a couple weeks before we can...maybe a month."
And, in the end, if she doesn't decide to adopt him out to us...I realized that he's not the only lionhead out there. Yes, I've wanted my lionhead buck for quite a while now...but if this doesn't work out, I have to really prepare my heart and be able to move on from this...and doing so entails knowing I can get another lionhead buck elsewhere. There are quite a few places around here I can get one, including from that mutual friend of ours (who I know is a responsible breeder).
BUT...that would be some time from now. I want to be sure we have everything settled the way it should be. I want to have Teddy and Cinnamon altered (because going that route would be adding a bun that's not altered...and I just don't want to go down that path again). I want our finances to be more solid.
Adopting Tucker would've been different, given that he was neutered, litterbox trained fully, etc. But an unaltered young buck...that's different, and we'd have to be prepared.
So, there ya go...I have rounded the bend in this whole thing...and I think me and my family have made some tough, but wise choices in the past few days.
Onwards and upwards!!!