Nicole, I'm still waiting to hear exactly what her cause of death was. Skyler has another vet appointment on Tuesday and we're going to talk about Tallulah then as well. Please hope that Skyler gets better quickly and we don't have to go to the vet again for a long time!
It's finally beginning to sink in for me that Tallulah is gone and won't be coming back. It's a relief in some ways because I'm not looking for her as much and then feeling a rush of pain when I remember she's not here. I'm getting used to the idea that she won't be living out her life with me, and that she and Skyler won't be the adorable little pair I've imagined since we first decided to bring Sky home. Instead, I imagine her and Cinnabun cuddling and playing together in heaven. I'm able to smile some now and feel happiness over other things, but I'm constantly aware that she's gone, her death is right below the surface and I'm almost always thinking about it. It's weird, sometimes work is good because it's a distraction, but other times I just want to go home and have some peace.
I think about how soft and fluffy her fur was, really, you all would have been amazed! She had such long, fine hairs that were SO soft and silky. She had the coat of a little bunny still. It was more adultlike than when I first got her (she was just a poofball then), but still very babylike. Is it just me, or did Tallulah always look very babyish? Keep in mind that in the pictures I posted above, the most recent ones were at the beginning and the pictures of her younger were near the end. She weighed about 2 1/3 pounds a week before she died, and she was pleasantly plump, so you can tell she was a little one.
Well, I have to go to work in a few hours, so I should get some sleep.
