I was out looking for him until midnight last night. I got sick. Erron got sick. Erron never gets sick. Erron was also freezing. HE never gets cold either. He wears a tshirt int his kidn of weather. He was bundled up this time though.
I cried all night uncontrollably and I keep getting the shakes. I can't stop shaking. Even just sitting here I bear a close resemblence to the other-business end of arattlesnake. I just want him to come home. I want more than anything to bury my face in his fur and tell him over and over again how much I love him so very very much.
I still can't stop bawling. All. Freaking. DAy. Its ridiculous. I've never cried so much in my life. Not even when my Uncle Died. Or my grandma, either. Probably because I knew I couldn't change those things. But It kills me not knowing where he is, if he's ok, what happened to him, is he hungry? Is he cold? Why hasn't anyone called me? WHY!?
I haven't eaten or slept. It took everything I had to make myself brush my hair, because I know I'd be crying if I skipped a day.
Seth's tracks (we're hoping they were his) led off into the woods and Erron followed them for nearly a mile on foot in the snow. He lost the trail and got too cold and had to come home. Bless him.
I tried taking our other dog out to see if she could pick something up, but she just peed everywhere and drug me around and it was upsetting that all she could think about was getting laid by a boy doggy.
I was at Kinkos today at 8AM printing out flyers and I hung them up at every grocery store, supperette, pet store, and feed store I could find. Even the post office. I drove around and put them on people's mailboxes and I knocked on doors and asked aroudn and handed out flyers and photos but I think because my eyes are so red and my skin and hair are starting to leave my face....people think i'm a drug dealer or something.
I'm so sick and miserable and I think I have pinkeye or something exploded in that region. Eiher way half my head is swollen and I can't see out of my left eye and because I automatically hold it closed, the other one kind of closes too and they're both so sensitive to light I'm easily snow blinded. I drive and walk up and down the streets calling his name but no Seth.
I call the police station severeal times a day. along with every animal shelter i've contacted. I called West pa Hs, Butler Hs, animal friends, beaver co hs, monroeville hs, mckees rocks hs, and like 6 other ones I'd never heard of .
I really miss my puppy. I just keep hoping he'll come home but every minute that goes by I worry more and more and more because no one's turned him in so does that mean he's outside in teh cold? Who's feeding him? Its so cold! So cold....
I'm such a wreck. No one can ever possibly understand how much Sethro means to me. I'd sdo anythin to have him back. He's my whole world. HE helps me feed bunnies and he goe EVERYWHERE with me and he makes people happy. Most of all, me.
Because he's so beautiful and because he's such a great great dog....I really really worry soooo much that someone stole him. Someone took him away from me. This is such a living nightmare!!! I'm goign to throw up again...
I've never screamed and cried at the same time before. Erron's a wreck because he doesn't know what the hey to do with me.I don't know what to do with me. I feel like i'm dying very very slowly. Go on wikipedia and look up the goat torture. This is worse than that. This is a living hell. I feel neither alive nor dead. If he doesn' come home soon i'm not goign to make it, I can't.