Finish loosing my weight..im down 82lbs since Jarred died May 3rd.
Firm up, cause with weight loss comes squishiness (is that even a word?)
Get over my fear of wood... heh.. seriously. We skate on 3 rinks. I learned to skate as a teen back in the day on one of em, a concrete poly coated floor. On this floor and the other rink I can skate back wards, forwards, do cross overs, jump over bodies in the floor and not fall, run in my skates, walk in em, dance like a fool, I can shred, pivot and tear it up... BUT.. you put me on a wood floor.. flailing giraffe. I have gotten better, but I am no where near as good a skater as I am at the other 2 tracks. The floors softer, so my wheels grip different, I slide faster.. and the rickety motion of the planks freaks me out. The majority of my bruises and injuries... wood floor.
Stop taking peoples heads off and serving them to them for dinner..not all people wear pads and helmets and skates. I need to learn to leave my new personna of Octo-Pushy #007 at the rink..
Be nicer to Squidz.. see above..cause the boy really loves me..
Be a better housekeeper. I have gotten so involved with Derby, and going out on auditions and working out and being self absorbed i've kinda done whats neccessary to keep the house clean, but the root core cleaning has been abandoned.
Stop being so self centered and self absorbed.. causeI spent so long being depressed, that when I found myself, I did go feral..and I came very close to pushing people away due to my .. *attitude*
Slack off on the Jagerbombs.. they are the debbil.
Again.. spend more time checking up on old friends, and less time gawking at myself in the mirror..
In general.. getting my head outta my own badonkadonk..and the rest will fall into place.. cause it took an old boyfriend to snap me out of it..He was hittin on me hot and heavy, persued me pretty hardcore, despite the fact that I am married, and about 2 days ago he told me, *yanno, I really thought I wanted to steal you from him, but I think he can have you, you have turned into the biggest self centered arrogant stuck on yourself C**T I have ever met..what happened to the sweet girl who use to be happy with me bringing her a mountain dew and a candy bar and looking in my eyes.. you can 'eff off*
That crushed me.. and gave me a huge wake up call.. I realized I don't like being called those things..
So.. time to do some personality/life changes..cause I did a really good job of pushing Russell away to the point we were both ready to say *see ya*He told me this morning that he was giving me till April.. and if I didn't realize what I was doing, he was walking..I hadn't really realized I was that outta hand..
But.. I think.. that was prolly pretty evident even on here.. that I was going in a complete different direction..
So that's my big resolutions...
Ima catawampuss mess...