[align=center]Hey Beautiful Boy.
I havenât written to you for ages, and Iâm so sorry about that, but I have spoken to you, and I think about you everyday. Even though I havenât written, you are definitely not forgotten and are still so much loved.
Iâm sorry I havenât posted this on the 26[suP]th[/suP] or 27[suP]th[/suP], but Iâm getting very wound up about some things, Iâm scared of myself and I want to make sure that this is public because then I feel like I know that you have seen it.
It been nearly two years since we ended up in different worlds, and it hurts as much now, as it did then.
Itâs still so hard Flashy, but I really want to try to remember the good things about you, not your last moments and cold hard body.
I was thinking about all the fun times we had. Remember when we used to play hide and seek? And I used to hide and you would come running when I called you? The first few times you always went to the place I first hid, then you realised that I moved about. That used to make me laugh, talk about creature of habit.
Or remember when you tried to âhelpâ me wrap Emilyâs Christmas prezzies? You ended up in the paper, and the funniest bit was when you got some sellotape stuck on your foot, and you danced across the room. What a case.
You always used to sit on my shoulder like a parrot watching whatever I was typing on the screen. You became widely know for that on another site, they thought you were really special. I didnât think, I KNEW!
You were hilarious when I gave you a toilet roll complete with tissue. You created a snow storm, but I think really you were annoyed with the fact I was coo-ing over your two children and not you at that very moment.
One of the funniest times was when that lady came to interview me to do voluntary work, do you remember? I didnât want you running around, but I didnât want to lock you in your hutch either. You hated the kitchen floor and never walked across it, so I put you next to your hutch with a carpeted area around it, so I knew you would be comfortable. What happened after about 45 minutes, hey? I saw this little Flash face poking round the door, and I thought âoh noâ, and in you waltzed. I asked the lady if it was ok and she said it was. I was silently begging you not to spray her, imagine if you had have done! But you were as good as gold, you jumped up to her sniffed her and then travelled on your way.
We had a lot of laughs together, didnât we, you also gave me some baaaad moments. Iâm sure you laughed in your head when I was lying on the floor with you, and you got up, ran past me and sprayed. And where did it go? In my mouth! Yuck! Even though you rock I wasnât impressed. It didnât taste good.
Ha ha, you certainly learnt how to show me your displeasure. Remember that time we went home after being at my parentâs house and you wanted your litter tray and because there was nothing in it, I took you out of it? Iâm sure you must remember. You ran straight upstairs, and weed on my bed. I went up to find you and there you were, looking at me, sitting next to your wee, looking all proud and definitely giving me the message that you were disgusted with me.
You gave me those funny times when I needed them to most. I donât need to tell you why I started looking for a bunny because the reasons donât matter, whatever the reasons I firmly believe we would still have ended up together because you were my soulmate.
You became my ray of sunshine at a very bleak time. You were my first ever friend. You didnât want me to be anything I wasnât, you didnât need me to be happy when I was low, or to use me for what you needed and not give a darn about me, you didnât want me to do anything I didnât want to do, you just wanted me to give you what you needed (and you know I did this, and more, you got everything I had to give), and in return, you gave me everything.
You were the first living being to see me at my worst. That one time when I was covered instuff and you just sat with me, getting soaked yourself, yet you stayed, and when I was calm, you just went and cleaned yourself off, and then came back. You used to let me hug you when I cried, youâd know when I needed you.
You made me live. All those times I went to hospital, that was for you; you know that. You gave me a reason to live. What was the point in bringing you into my life, just for me to walk out on you and abandon you. It was Tracy and Flash, wasnât it, Flash and Tracy. A duo, a team.
I used to get upset thinking about losing you in 7 or 8 years, I had to force myself to not think about it. Then what happened, in November 2005 I was watching the Narnia film and instead of Aslan on the table, I saw you. You were just lying there, flat on your side, unable to move, dead.
That came true didnât it my lovely. Just six short weeks later we were ripped apart, and you died just as you looked in that image.
When I knew what had happened, that the cat had been in your hutch, I was terrified at first, but then so relieved to see you alive. I kept telling everyone that you would be ok, because you had to be, I needed you. Maybe if I had belonged to this forum, you would have been ok. I would certainly have known more what to do to help, and known who to ask. In fact, I truly believe that I could have saved you, you would still be here, I dropped the ball there and will carry that with me forever.
It was the day of my family gathering for my birthday, remember? I stayed upstairs in my room with you but for 15 mins went downstairs to see them and thank them for my presents. When I came back, in those few minutes you had gone from sitting up shakily, to stretched out and almost dead. It was almost like, with me gone, you lost your fight, your spirit.
We rushed you to the vet. I desperately wanted to take you by myself. I knew you were dying, and I wanted to stay with you and never be parted, but dad wouldnât let me, he came too, he made us be in separate worlds. You managed another two hours at the vets, but died there. Remember? I told you it was ok to go. It wasnât that I wanted to lose you, I was so desperate for you to live, but you were so tired, I couldnât bear to see my special prince hurting so much. I wanted you to be free.
I held you and cuddled you for hours after you died, I tried to wake you up by using Ozzy, who you loved and wanted to hump at every opportunity. But you didnât wake up, you wouldnât wake up.
When you died, my world crumbled. You know that, I did my best to follow, but I realised I had to fight, for you. The gift you gave me of Sky and Moon really helped with that.
I fought as hard as I could. Then I couldnât take it anymore, yes, I had to fight for you, to honour your memory, then I couldnât stand it anymore. I tried to come bunface, I really did, I was there, you must have heard my footsteps, but they dragged me back, they âsavedâ me. I came knocking again, just after you were joined by Moon, but when they realised how ill I was I had to have treatment because I was scared of them âsavingâ me again.
Iâm so desperate to be with you, but right now, my focus has to be here. I know I will be with you some day, but I canât leave here now that I have a herd of âFlashlettesâ. I am keeping a strong part of you alive by having them here. They are incredible. Do you remember me showing you Angel? And introducing you? He looks a spitting image of you, but heâs a turdy, he doesnât act like you.
I will come though, thatâs a promise, I even know when, and how, so you enjoy your time up there frolicking with your girlie friends, and rest peacefully in the knowledge we will be together again.
You came into my life when I most needed a friend, you showed me what it was like to have a true friend, you gave me some beautiful gifts in the shape of children, you were there when no one else was. Iâm so deeply sorry I let you down. I wish, more than anything in the world, that I had had more knowledge and had been able to save you. I wish I could have done more, and saved your life. I just wish I could explain in words how I really feel about you. Words donât do it justice.
I love you my beautiful. Always remember that.
You already know these, but I want you to remember, them, ok?
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby
I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for cash
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
For you my world, my love, my Flash
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Snuggling up to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my Flashy to me...
Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my Flashy
Sleeping there right on the floor
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
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[align=center]No I cant forget that evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way this story goes,
You loved your life
And in your eyes your sparkle showed
Oh Yes it showed
No I cant forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there but then you let go
And now its only fair that I should let you know
What you should know
I cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
Cant live
If living is without you
cant give,
I cant give anymore
No I cant forget that evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way this story goes,
You loved your life
And in your eyes your sparkle showed
Oh Yes it showed
cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
Cant live
If living is without you
I cant live,
I cant give anymore
Ohhhhhh(No cant live)
No no no (No I cant live)
I cant live (No cant live)
If living is without (No I cant live)
I cant live (No cant live)
I cant give anymore (No I cant live)
Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl
The girl who has everything?
Look at this trove,
Treasures untold,
How many wonders can one bedroom hold?
Looking around here you'd think
Sure, she's got everything
I've got CDs and TVs and plenty
I've got care bears and pictures galore
You want DVDs? I've got 20!
But who cares?
No big deal,
I want more!
I wanna be where the lost buns are
I wanna see
Wanna see 'em dancing
Running around at that
What do you call it again? Oh, bridge!
Sitting down here you don't get too far
Leaving is required for jumping, dancing
Strolling along down the
What's that word again? Bridge
Up where they walk
Up where they run
Up where they play all day and have fun
Binkying free
WishI could see
You inyour world
Good night my boy, my world, my soul.
I will see you again. I donât know when, but I know why, I know how. I will come. Youâre always in my heart, and my soul, and I miss you more than you will ever know. I miss you, my friend.
Sweet Dreams
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I havenât written to you for ages, and Iâm so sorry about that, but I have spoken to you, and I think about you everyday. Even though I havenât written, you are definitely not forgotten and are still so much loved.
Iâm sorry I havenât posted this on the 26[suP]th[/suP] or 27[suP]th[/suP], but Iâm getting very wound up about some things, Iâm scared of myself and I want to make sure that this is public because then I feel like I know that you have seen it.
It been nearly two years since we ended up in different worlds, and it hurts as much now, as it did then.
Itâs still so hard Flashy, but I really want to try to remember the good things about you, not your last moments and cold hard body.
I was thinking about all the fun times we had. Remember when we used to play hide and seek? And I used to hide and you would come running when I called you? The first few times you always went to the place I first hid, then you realised that I moved about. That used to make me laugh, talk about creature of habit.
Or remember when you tried to âhelpâ me wrap Emilyâs Christmas prezzies? You ended up in the paper, and the funniest bit was when you got some sellotape stuck on your foot, and you danced across the room. What a case.
You always used to sit on my shoulder like a parrot watching whatever I was typing on the screen. You became widely know for that on another site, they thought you were really special. I didnât think, I KNEW!
You were hilarious when I gave you a toilet roll complete with tissue. You created a snow storm, but I think really you were annoyed with the fact I was coo-ing over your two children and not you at that very moment.
One of the funniest times was when that lady came to interview me to do voluntary work, do you remember? I didnât want you running around, but I didnât want to lock you in your hutch either. You hated the kitchen floor and never walked across it, so I put you next to your hutch with a carpeted area around it, so I knew you would be comfortable. What happened after about 45 minutes, hey? I saw this little Flash face poking round the door, and I thought âoh noâ, and in you waltzed. I asked the lady if it was ok and she said it was. I was silently begging you not to spray her, imagine if you had have done! But you were as good as gold, you jumped up to her sniffed her and then travelled on your way.
We had a lot of laughs together, didnât we, you also gave me some baaaad moments. Iâm sure you laughed in your head when I was lying on the floor with you, and you got up, ran past me and sprayed. And where did it go? In my mouth! Yuck! Even though you rock I wasnât impressed. It didnât taste good.
Ha ha, you certainly learnt how to show me your displeasure. Remember that time we went home after being at my parentâs house and you wanted your litter tray and because there was nothing in it, I took you out of it? Iâm sure you must remember. You ran straight upstairs, and weed on my bed. I went up to find you and there you were, looking at me, sitting next to your wee, looking all proud and definitely giving me the message that you were disgusted with me.
You gave me those funny times when I needed them to most. I donât need to tell you why I started looking for a bunny because the reasons donât matter, whatever the reasons I firmly believe we would still have ended up together because you were my soulmate.
You became my ray of sunshine at a very bleak time. You were my first ever friend. You didnât want me to be anything I wasnât, you didnât need me to be happy when I was low, or to use me for what you needed and not give a darn about me, you didnât want me to do anything I didnât want to do, you just wanted me to give you what you needed (and you know I did this, and more, you got everything I had to give), and in return, you gave me everything.
You were the first living being to see me at my worst. That one time when I was covered instuff and you just sat with me, getting soaked yourself, yet you stayed, and when I was calm, you just went and cleaned yourself off, and then came back. You used to let me hug you when I cried, youâd know when I needed you.
You made me live. All those times I went to hospital, that was for you; you know that. You gave me a reason to live. What was the point in bringing you into my life, just for me to walk out on you and abandon you. It was Tracy and Flash, wasnât it, Flash and Tracy. A duo, a team.
I used to get upset thinking about losing you in 7 or 8 years, I had to force myself to not think about it. Then what happened, in November 2005 I was watching the Narnia film and instead of Aslan on the table, I saw you. You were just lying there, flat on your side, unable to move, dead.
That came true didnât it my lovely. Just six short weeks later we were ripped apart, and you died just as you looked in that image.
When I knew what had happened, that the cat had been in your hutch, I was terrified at first, but then so relieved to see you alive. I kept telling everyone that you would be ok, because you had to be, I needed you. Maybe if I had belonged to this forum, you would have been ok. I would certainly have known more what to do to help, and known who to ask. In fact, I truly believe that I could have saved you, you would still be here, I dropped the ball there and will carry that with me forever.
It was the day of my family gathering for my birthday, remember? I stayed upstairs in my room with you but for 15 mins went downstairs to see them and thank them for my presents. When I came back, in those few minutes you had gone from sitting up shakily, to stretched out and almost dead. It was almost like, with me gone, you lost your fight, your spirit.
We rushed you to the vet. I desperately wanted to take you by myself. I knew you were dying, and I wanted to stay with you and never be parted, but dad wouldnât let me, he came too, he made us be in separate worlds. You managed another two hours at the vets, but died there. Remember? I told you it was ok to go. It wasnât that I wanted to lose you, I was so desperate for you to live, but you were so tired, I couldnât bear to see my special prince hurting so much. I wanted you to be free.
I held you and cuddled you for hours after you died, I tried to wake you up by using Ozzy, who you loved and wanted to hump at every opportunity. But you didnât wake up, you wouldnât wake up.
When you died, my world crumbled. You know that, I did my best to follow, but I realised I had to fight, for you. The gift you gave me of Sky and Moon really helped with that.
I fought as hard as I could. Then I couldnât take it anymore, yes, I had to fight for you, to honour your memory, then I couldnât stand it anymore. I tried to come bunface, I really did, I was there, you must have heard my footsteps, but they dragged me back, they âsavedâ me. I came knocking again, just after you were joined by Moon, but when they realised how ill I was I had to have treatment because I was scared of them âsavingâ me again.
Iâm so desperate to be with you, but right now, my focus has to be here. I know I will be with you some day, but I canât leave here now that I have a herd of âFlashlettesâ. I am keeping a strong part of you alive by having them here. They are incredible. Do you remember me showing you Angel? And introducing you? He looks a spitting image of you, but heâs a turdy, he doesnât act like you.
I will come though, thatâs a promise, I even know when, and how, so you enjoy your time up there frolicking with your girlie friends, and rest peacefully in the knowledge we will be together again.
You came into my life when I most needed a friend, you showed me what it was like to have a true friend, you gave me some beautiful gifts in the shape of children, you were there when no one else was. Iâm so deeply sorry I let you down. I wish, more than anything in the world, that I had had more knowledge and had been able to save you. I wish I could have done more, and saved your life. I just wish I could explain in words how I really feel about you. Words donât do it justice.
I love you my beautiful. Always remember that.
You already know these, but I want you to remember, them, ok?
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby
I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for cash
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
For you my world, my love, my Flash
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Snuggling up to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my Flashy to me...
Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my Flashy
Sleeping there right on the floor
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You[/align]
[align=center]No I cant forget that evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way this story goes,
You loved your life
And in your eyes your sparkle showed
Oh Yes it showed
No I cant forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there but then you let go
And now its only fair that I should let you know
What you should know
I cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
Cant live
If living is without you
cant give,
I cant give anymore
No I cant forget that evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way this story goes,
You loved your life
And in your eyes your sparkle showed
Oh Yes it showed
cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
Cant live
If living is without you
I cant live,
I cant give anymore
Ohhhhhh(No cant live)
No no no (No I cant live)
I cant live (No cant live)
If living is without (No I cant live)
I cant live (No cant live)
I cant give anymore (No I cant live)
Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl
The girl who has everything?
Look at this trove,
Treasures untold,
How many wonders can one bedroom hold?
Looking around here you'd think
Sure, she's got everything
I've got CDs and TVs and plenty
I've got care bears and pictures galore
You want DVDs? I've got 20!
But who cares?
No big deal,
I want more!
I wanna be where the lost buns are
I wanna see
Wanna see 'em dancing
Running around at that
What do you call it again? Oh, bridge!
Sitting down here you don't get too far
Leaving is required for jumping, dancing
Strolling along down the
What's that word again? Bridge
Up where they walk
Up where they run
Up where they play all day and have fun
Binkying free
WishI could see
You inyour world
Good night my boy, my world, my soul.
I will see you again. I donât know when, but I know why, I know how. I will come. Youâre always in my heart, and my soul, and I miss you more than you will ever know. I miss you, my friend.
Sweet Dreams
x
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