Thank you.:in tears:I was watching some old videos of Ruby and Millie last night and it was so strange - to see her hopping about and playing -happy and healthy, yet knowing that she's not really here.
I don't think I'll ever be ok with her being gone. :bigtears:
Just to let you guys know - I saw Ruby's x rays today. My God...my poor baby.:tears2:The tumour was massive, it took up most of her chest. The vet said that added with the fluid in her lungs, she only had one quarter of her normal lung capacity - plus the tumour was pressing up against her trachea so it made her breathing even more difficult.:cry4:
The vet was so sweet, he said he was away when Ruby was ill, however he had been studying her medical notes and x rays and I talked him through what Judith said, and he said he agreed with my decisions on how to treat her, and when to let her go- which was at least of some comfort. He said unfortunately it's just incredibly bad luck getting tumours there - because they can't be treated. It comforted me a little to know I did the right thing, and I couldn't have done any more....but it still doesn't make the pain any less.
I am missing Ruby so so much right now, I would do anything to hold her in my arms again and tell her how much I love her.:bigtears:
Also - a friend on another forum made this for me. It is beautiful.:in tears:
I can't imagine how sad you must be. I have thought about that gorgeous girl myself so much. She was amazing to have fought as long as she did. That tumor must have been so draining on her.
She knows you love her. It's so hard when we don't have them to hold.
How's Millie doing? are you able to love on her at all? that would help I'm sure.
I know BBB - she was amazing, and so strong.:tears2: Even when she was that ill she kept fighting and even survived undergoing the anesthetic. She never gave up.:cry4:
Millie is doing ok - she still has major mood swings but on the whole she is getting better. I was thinking of taking some pictures of her this afternoon, but I have no idea where to post them. It seems like sucha stupid, trivialthing to worry about, but I can hardly post them on the 'double trouble' thread...and I'm not ready to make a thread just for Millie.:in tears:
I still keep expecting Ruby to come back; her and Millie were so close they were practically one bun, it's not right Millie being without her sister.Seeing Ruby's x rays today has just really set me off...:sad:
Millie is doing ok - she still has major mood swings but on the whole she is getting better. I was thinking of taking some pictures of her this afternoon, but I have no idea where to post them. It seems like sucha stupid, trivialthing to worry about, but I can hardly post them on the 'double trouble' thread...and I'm not ready to make a thread just for Millie.:in tears:
Thank you everyone.:hug:I think I may well stick with the double trouble thread...it's just hard going on and seeing pictures of my beautiful Ruby, knowing that she's gone. I haven't been able to look at that thread since Ruby died, it's too painful.:bigtears:
Emily - I'm sorry too. I understand so much what you're going through. It was awful looking through your posts during Peanut's last night, because I was going through the exact same thing on Ruby's last night. I kept trying to think of something to say to comfort you, but truth is I've been there and when you are in that much pain words can't really make a difference.:cry4:I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Thinking of you.:hug:
Well my Ruby Tuesday, I have been dreading this day coming for some time, but today is the one year anniversary of your death.
I honestly cannot believe that it has been a year already, it only seems like yesterday that you were still with us. So much has happened this past year that I so needed you for. I wish more than anything that you were still here Ruby, I still miss you every day honey.:tears2:
A few weeks ago when we picked Millie up from her pet-sitter she was talking about a rabbit of hers who died from the same thing as you, except they didn't get to her poor baby in time and he died chocking in her arms. I can't imagine what that must have been like, and I am so glad you never had to go through that Ruby. At least you got to slip away peacefully. If anything I am glad for that.
Ruby I am so scared of forgetting you. I feel like everyone else can forget and move on but I can't, and yet the longer you are gone the more I start to forget the little things thatI loved so much about you...it scares me.:cry2But I promise you Ruby, I'll hold onto those memories for as long as I can and treasure them always. I'll never forget or stop loving you baby girl. Ever.
:sigh: Aww, Jess, we won't ever forget Ruby. I wish I could have met her as well as Millie I can't believe that it has been a year, either. I am just grateful that Millie got over her problems and is still here.
Ruby, you were such a beautiful girl - we still miss and love you! Look after your mom and sister today!
Aww Jess..Ruby was such a special little girl...who will never be forgotten.
I dreaded this year as well...i lost my special little bunnies and i knew it was going to be a sad time...i miss them terribly...and i think about them all the time..i miss all their little antics that they used to get up to...i just miss everything about them...i still shed those tears when i think about them.
Ruby will alway's live on in your memory Jess....treasure those memories forever...just like i will treasure mine forever.
Oh Jess, I know hon. I will never, ever forget Ruby! Ever! She was so beautiful, just like her sister Millie!
As far as time, can you believe it will be a year for Angel in 2 months?:shock: I can't believe it. So, yes, I know how fast it has gone.
Ruby? I know I miss you sweetheart! I hope you are having a ball over there and playing lots! You're mommy will never, ever forget you! You can bet on that.
Aw Jess I know exactly how your feeling honey. You'll never forget Ruby, same as I won't Milly. Yeah there's time's when i feel i'm letting my babies memory go, and feel guilty for it. I think its just i try not to think of him too deeply cause even...
though a years gone by since i last held him, its still painful, he's not here anymore. You will keep hold of all your memories of Ruby, she will always be your special girl. I will always remember her too. Her and Milly may be having so much fun together.
oor you, I hate having dreams about them, I always dream Pebble and Berri are still alive, it's horrible remembering when you wake up.
