Saffy
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I think the world of you people on RO .. my husband and girls laugh at me, but for the most, you are GOOD people, who look at things with a kind perspective and give positive feedback to people.
So .. here goes .. and I promise to try not to ramble.
In 2007 I had an operation on my back to relieve extreme pain that one of my 3 bulging disks was causing.
It immediately allieviated the intense pain, but pain was still there but bearable most of the time. This last year or so, the time between good pain and bad pain, has been getting shorter and I have been referred for another MRI which i had last week and the results of which I will get on the 16th of this month.
When I had the scan I had to position myself in an awkward position as I have to enter the tunnel feet first instead of head first as I am very claustraphobic. Since then then pain has got worse every day and I am now taking .. not at the same time may I add, Tramadol, Dihdracodiene, Diazepam, Amytryptiline - which alleviate the pain a lot, but of course, minimising the pain doesnt take away the problem and I am probably doing more at work than I should.
I cant take time off of work because there are few jobs and we already have a vacancy which has had over 20 applicants, most of them totally over qualified because the job situation is very bleak at the mo inthe uk. I therefore do not want to lose a job that normally I can do perfectly well and absolutely love.
My Manageress is sympathetic to a point .. but when I called in because I tore a ligament in my knee and was on the way to hospital last October all she could say was, "well, I can't come in tomorrow I have things to do" .. not .. Oh, dont worry about a thing, just get well" (And then had a moan to herself later .. which is what most of us woul d have done)
I managed to get to work yesterday .. but had to drive in 2nd gear all the way as changing gear caused really severe pain in my leg .. heheh .. you can imagine the abuse from all the other drivers wanting to pass my little care doing 15 miles per hour. All she was .. "You're no use to me here" ... I told her I would give it an hour as I had not long since taken two tramadol instead of one to help the pain.
This actually caused me to space out totally .. i lost all feeling in my fingers .. indeed they went white and dead, if you know what i mean. Trouble is, it's the only way i can keep the pain at a minimal. I had to take a couple of breaks and the lady in reception came in for me as I sometimes went totally blank and had no idea what I was doing.
Thankfully, one of the maintenance guys from work is picking me up today as i am 2 - 8 and can't risk driving again as I feel i am a danger to everyone driving so slowly.
I just need a virtual hug .. i'm so frustrated .. so upset .. i keep crying all the time .. probably blummin hormoes as i've not had a period since the start of july and that's not usual (I'm 48).
Other than that .. I'm off for two days as from tomorrow ..
So .. here goes .. and I promise to try not to ramble.
In 2007 I had an operation on my back to relieve extreme pain that one of my 3 bulging disks was causing.
It immediately allieviated the intense pain, but pain was still there but bearable most of the time. This last year or so, the time between good pain and bad pain, has been getting shorter and I have been referred for another MRI which i had last week and the results of which I will get on the 16th of this month.
When I had the scan I had to position myself in an awkward position as I have to enter the tunnel feet first instead of head first as I am very claustraphobic. Since then then pain has got worse every day and I am now taking .. not at the same time may I add, Tramadol, Dihdracodiene, Diazepam, Amytryptiline - which alleviate the pain a lot, but of course, minimising the pain doesnt take away the problem and I am probably doing more at work than I should.
I cant take time off of work because there are few jobs and we already have a vacancy which has had over 20 applicants, most of them totally over qualified because the job situation is very bleak at the mo inthe uk. I therefore do not want to lose a job that normally I can do perfectly well and absolutely love.
My Manageress is sympathetic to a point .. but when I called in because I tore a ligament in my knee and was on the way to hospital last October all she could say was, "well, I can't come in tomorrow I have things to do" .. not .. Oh, dont worry about a thing, just get well" (And then had a moan to herself later .. which is what most of us woul d have done)
I managed to get to work yesterday .. but had to drive in 2nd gear all the way as changing gear caused really severe pain in my leg .. heheh .. you can imagine the abuse from all the other drivers wanting to pass my little care doing 15 miles per hour. All she was .. "You're no use to me here" ... I told her I would give it an hour as I had not long since taken two tramadol instead of one to help the pain.
This actually caused me to space out totally .. i lost all feeling in my fingers .. indeed they went white and dead, if you know what i mean. Trouble is, it's the only way i can keep the pain at a minimal. I had to take a couple of breaks and the lady in reception came in for me as I sometimes went totally blank and had no idea what I was doing.
Thankfully, one of the maintenance guys from work is picking me up today as i am 2 - 8 and can't risk driving again as I feel i am a danger to everyone driving so slowly.
I just need a virtual hug .. i'm so frustrated .. so upset .. i keep crying all the time .. probably blummin hormoes as i've not had a period since the start of july and that's not usual (I'm 48).
Other than that .. I'm off for two days as from tomorrow ..
