Oh Foo, I miss you so much. I can't walk into the kitchen without thinking you're in there and when you're not, I freeze up and just stand there. I found myself in the kitchen a lot today just standing there, not knowing what I was doing. I'm having such a hard time with this, I didn't think I would ever be in this place. I didn't think you would ever leave me. My heart hurts so bad. I washed all your dirty blankets today so I could give the baby a blanket to sleep on. Its the last time I'll wash all your white fur off those blankets, the last time I'll pick it out of the lint trap in the dryer.
I really miss feeding you bananas in the mornings and at dinner time. I miss that so much. I also miss your dewlap. I don't know what to do without you here, I have no routine now. My day today was so strange and empty feeling. You were missing to feed lunch and dinner to. I didn't have to take the time out to wash and rip up your greens, because you weren't here to eat them. I cooked dinner and didn't have any company, so I cooked in silence. I let Ellie out and she is obsessed with your cage, she won't stay out of it and she can get through the bars. So I let her eat your hay. She fits in your hay box, and I gave her your litter box.
I'm so exhausted from crying, but I cried less today. Maybe I'll cry even less tomorrow, but I don't think so.
I'm really struggling with this bun, I'm having the hardest time without you here. Ellie makes me feel better though, she makes me feel like there is reason to go into the kitchen other than for food. I'm so glad I have her, but she isn't you. I wish you were here big girl. I love you.
I'm sorry for anyone who is reading this, its so sad. I'm so sad and I don't know what else to do. I'm having the hardest time. I don't want anyone to think that I'm neglecting my son or other animals, because I'm not. I'm just so dazed and I'm just kind of lost. Not to mention, I haven't talked very much today or eaten very much. I never thought that losing her would be so hard.
Whoever said, "its better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all" obviously never loved a rabbit.