Maureen,
I've just read your post about Gabriel today, though you'd mentioned his passing to me.
I am so very sorry for your compounded loss. I'd never wish such an experience on anyone (having undergone one myself in the past). It hurts like hell, and we're left wondering, "Was it something that I did (or didn't do)?"
In the end, we're much too hard on ourselves, especially as loving pet parents. We do the very best that we can, and our furry (or feathered, or scaled) loved ones know it. It's my belief that they better understand life and, thus, know that we've no reason to even ask for forgiveness: We are blameless in the sense that we do our very best, that our care comes from the heart.
Please go easy on yourself and give extra love to your other bun charges. Please also ccept that you did the very best,offeringGabriel a loving home for as long as he deemed fit. :hearts: No bun (or any other animal species) could ask for more. :hug2:
Jenk