Thank you everyone.
It's been so hard!
Daisy LOVED to be held and cuddled. We spent the last three days constantly holding her because she was flopping in circles from the e-cuniculi, and she was only comfortable in our arms. I told Daisy as I waited in the doctors office that jesus wanted a bunny to snuggle and he picked her because she was such a good little bunny.
It seemed like everytime I turned around there were reminders. We got a new brand of bologna at the deli where I work, and everytime someone asked for Daisy bologna I cringed. My daughter was watching a movie and suddenly in the middle they played Daisys song and I sat at the kitchen table silently weeping and wanting to scream turn it off. I get too attached to my pets and i grieve really bad when one dies. My dog died last year but I handled it much better, she was 16, and we spent a nice last day together. But baby animals...
And I'm living in fear now and the nightmares not over. Her 8 month old sister Bella is very sick. They had pasteurella, pseudomonas, and e-cuniculi. The vet said Bella looked a little better, which was hopeful, but he is afraid she could take a sudden turn in the next month and go downhill like Daisy. And the past two weeks, instead of improving, she is getting sicker, she has been sneezing again and less energetic. I'm afraid, really afraid for her. Bella was always the sick one, and then Daisy went downhill, so what hope does Bella really have? I feel myself trying to emotionally distance myself from her because I fear she isnt going to make it, and I love her so much. I got sick with a cold when Daisy died from crying so much, and if I lose Bella now, I know the pain is going to be unbearable. It hurt my heart so bad I had chest pains when I held Daisy's cute little body and buried her, I will be sobbing a million tears if I have to look at sweet little Bellas face laying in a dirt hole.
If you pray, pray that I dont have to post another memorial in this forum named Bella. pray that bella doesnt join daisy on a bicycle built for two.
xox