I have been avoiding this thread as I really didn't need anyone or anything to make me feel worse right now but I felt I needed to explain a few things to you first. I didn't feel like sharing personal details but I guess I will be judged as insensitive and simply careless until I did.
First of all, all my bunnies are rescued bunnies except for Dahlia. All those rescued bunnies were to be put down or used as food for snakes when I got them. I got my first one at the age of 16. I was working, paying to live at home, and paying everything I needed myself. When my bunny Toutounne got sick, my parents refused to pay for treatment. I got a second job to pay for her treatments and I went to numerous vet appointments, doing a billion tests to try and figure out what was happening. Meanwhile, my other bunny Grizouille also got ill with the same thing so I treated her as much as I did the other. Shots of anitbiotics, I have done too many to count. I syringe fed them, cleaned them, and held them throughout their seizures. Finally, I had to put them down because it was too pitiful. All of this cost me about a good 500$. Ihad justgotten Wiggles at the time (before knowing the other two were sick of course) and I was also desperately trying to save her life.Luckily, the vetpitied her and didn't charge me for most of the stuff. No one thought she would make it. I dunno if you have ever dealt with a babybunny who has been in so much pain that it broke it's teeth from grinding them but I have. I made her every puree imaginable and syringe fed her. I didn't sleep at nights and I held her in my arms wrapped in a blanket to keep her warm. I wiped her eyes, her nose, her paws. She couldn't even walk for how bad the infection on her hind legs was. Then one night she seized and I thought for sure she had caught what the others had and I'd lose her. I held her and kept her from hurting herself and then I cradled her through the night. Despite all the odds, she pulled through, surprising everyone who had seen her. Later that year, while working at the pet shop, an older bunny (about 9 months-1 year) who still hadn't been adopted just charmed her way into my home. I bought her as a present for my mom. She was, and still remains the smartest and sweetest bunny I have met. My mother adored her and pampered her like no other. One day, while doing a routine check on the buns, I realized that she had developped malocclusion. From then on, it was regular visits to the vet. Luckily, he only charged 5$ to trim them, even when anaethesia became necessary. Maybe a year later, the malocclusion got very serious and before we knew it, her top teeth had curved into her gums. She couldn't eat properly and I was terrified. I took her to the vet and he was able to cut her teeth and remove a good part but not all of it. She developped and abcess and though we did everything we could think of, we ran out of options. The other vet had decided that an operation to remove her teeth would not succeed as the infection had spread into her respiratory track. The morning I had called in to have her put to sleep, she took a rapid drastic turn for the worst, and I held her tight as she took her last breaths and died in my arms. All in all, I spent about 1200$ on those 3 bunnies and I am still paying off my Visa. I spent it knowing that there was a good chance they wouldn't make it, but I never gave up on them. Not once. Not even when the vet suggested I save my money. I loved them too dearly not to fight for them. :cry1:
This month has been full of the unexpected. I saved a bunny from being euthanised but then put my Wiggles in danger by giving in to pressure. To top it off, I was rushed to the ER for a near respiratory arrest and then told I had pneumonia since November. I was then rushed to the ER to be hospitalized for my heart. I have been in and out of the hospital since, and bills piled on quickly unexpectedly. However, despite all this, my attention was on Wiggles. As soon as I saw the mistake I called both my vet and the vet specialized in exotic animals (he is affiliated to the SPCA and Quebec Rabbit Shelter and comes highly recommended). I feared pelvic bones setting and was utterly confused when both told me they had never heard of this. I was completely discouraged with the lack of knowledge from both vets. When I found that blood, I was terrified. I called every place I could think of, including some that I knew didn't deal with bunnies. The one place I got through was the emergency animal hospital called the DMV Centre located in Lachine. Both the first person and vet tech told me that even if I brought her in, they had no idea what they could do for her other than what I was already doing. I monitored her all night, and followed your advice as best I could. On monday morning, I called and both told me that as long as there had been no other bleeding, and that she was as active as she was, they didn't want me to move her, stress her out, or handle her too much. They would not do a caesarian at this point and they definitely would not do a spay, they said. One vet offered to do an emergency caesarian if, and only if, she started to have contractions (or if she was straining to pee) and nothing was coming out. My vet told me that if her due date comes and passes, I am to take her in and then he will check what is going on. He told me that if there were babies in there he'd get them out. He did not tell me how however. I have been monitoring her since, there has been no other blood at all, and she is eating and drinking as she normally does. She is just as active as usual although she does plop herself on the side when she gets tired.
I understand that everyone here loves bunnies and try to do everything they can to protect them. I do not however appreciate being made to feel as though I am unworthy to own a bunny. Especially, since I have rescued as many as I could and did everything I possibly could to save their lives. I wish I had a car to drive them down to some place whre they actually knew more. I wish I had even half the resources many of you have. If I did, maybe my 3 other buns would not have died. I am doing everything in my power right now to give her the treatment she deserves.I do not expect kits, nor do I want any if it means putting her in jeopardy. I did ask for an emergency spay as soon as I realized the possibility of her being pregnant. If I ask, it is because stranger things have happened and I do want to be prepared if it does happen.
I want to say a big thank you to those who have sympathized, offered advice without making me feel like a completely insensitive person, and to those who have pm'd me to offer words of support and ecouragement. To everyone, I'm sorry for the long post but I had to get this off my chest.
Sincerely,
A very emotinal MsBinky:tears2:
I really hope nothing goes wrong. If something happens though, our regular vet would take her in and let me know if it's too serious. I would rather have her put down than watch her suffer. 
