Bad news today

[Fancy77]

((((HUGS))) My thoughts and prayers are with u and yours.

 

[DeniseJP]

Thank you - the car is packed... I head out early in the AM... enjoying dessert with Tim, Andy and Greg - Benn has to work "Black Friday" so he is in bed as he has to be at work by 5AM...

Will post from CT once I arrive.

Happy Thanksgiving - I am thankful for getting a day to cook here and spend time with the family, bunnies and horses... don't know if it age that is making me reflective but I am truly grateful for each day I wake up and can face the day... some folks are not so lucky.

Denise

 

[MyLOVEABLES!!]

((HUGS!)) I'm thinkin of you.

 

[DeniseJP]

I'm back - no time to post as it was a whirlwind trip.

Dad looks fine - he said if he did not go to the ER for the pain (which went away after 3 days), he would not be burdened with the thought of knowing he has cancer. He said he has to see the movie The Bucket List... it might give him some ideas. That made us laugh as he thought it was funny.

My sister said the prognosis is 5 months and the cancer is in the worst possible spot according to the doctor.

We had a good day on Saturday and I went back to my sister's that evening and my sister, brother in law and Dad all watched the movie Borat, which Dad had never seen before.

Saying goodbye that evening was tough. I hope I get back to CT again. Dad is going by another thing he read which gave him a year.

He said it is tough to contend with the thought of being terminally ill... he said there is nothing he "can't" do now - he can do it all.

Thanks for listening and for your good thoughts.

Denise

 

[hartleybun]

:hug:to you and your dad. in her last months mum kept a diary - it's not a common term here but she was ticking off her own bucket list. we packed a lifetime into those last months too.

hugs and love to you all x

 

[pumpkinandwhiskersmom]

Thinking of you and your family!ray:

 

[DeniseJP]

Thanks...I thought of the song Seasons of Love from the musical "Rent"...all the things you measure a life by - daylight and sunsets and cups of coffee, in inches, miles, laughter and tears... how can you measure a year?

Dad always asks me how I deal with having type 1 diabetes for so long - 20 years this February 24th was the day I was diagnosed and hospitalized. I said I just deal - there is nothing else to do but live my life. I look at it with humor - if it shortens my life, well, I miss drooling on myself and wearing adult diapers. In my opinion, I don't ever want to lose my dignity and I hope my dad doesn't have to, either.

Again I remind myself - when life gives you lemons, to hell with lemonade - make a lemon meringue pie and share it!

Denise

 

[DeniseJP]

And to make things more interesting, dad had to go on insulin this week since the diabetes pills are not working... I can understand that as I have been on insulin 20 years on February 24th....he has a biopsy on Friday to see what exactly he is fighting... and I am glad he is fighting still.

Denise

 

[Fancy77]

He is such a wonderful person I give him sooo much credit!!!

 

[DeniseJP]

Dad meets with the oncologist and the rest of the team of docs this coming week for his "options." He continues to go to the gym regularly and I found out he did quit smoking almost 5 years ago.

Denise

 

[pumpkinandwhiskersmom]

Your dad, you and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers!:hug:

 

[sbaxter]

Thinking of you at this trying time

 

[DeniseJP]

It's official - stage IV pancreatic cancer AND liver cancer. Dad went yesterday to meet with the oncologist but I have not heard if he told the doctor that he is not doing chemo - surgery and radiation were not an option.

At least he is still here and feeling OK so I can call him and check on him. Some folks are not that lucky if a family member dies suddenly of a heart attack or other tragedy.

Dad said "We all have to die someday." He is right - but one is never ready for it.

Denise

 

[pumpkinandwhiskersmom]

I'm so sorry to hear about the diagnosis. Your dad and your family will be in our prayers.

 

[DeniseJP]

Thanks - he and my sister called to say Merry Christmas as they were driving to her in-laws.

Going back to my spot on the sofa with the blankets...

Denise