JadeIcing
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Yup male. Found that out pretty fast. Should get my AFT monday before I go. 
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Part One
Right now I am grieving on so many scales. I feel like I am wrapped up in it. How do I get out?
Part of me feels bad because I feel like I should be grieving for Sam and while I miss her the grief isn't for her. It is for my boys, and knowing that I will lose Brit.
I got my boys in large part because of my friend Amy. She got Merlin and Mace, they belonged to her but oh my god I fell in love. I had always wanted a guinea pig but seeing Merlin my heart sang and I wanted guinea pigs so bad. When the chance came up for my first two boys Skunk Boy and Peanut Butter Cup (nicknames) I jumped it just had to work.
Than I lost Sam just before they were to get here. Oh god did I hurt but I just kept making plans for my boys. They got me through even when I just wanted to curl up and die. I named them to honor Sam. Samuel Elijah and Logan Jake.
Some how things came about and Amy had to rehome her two boys. I won't go into details but it was such a rough time and lots of things happened but I got my boys. I got my Merlin that had stolen my heart before I met him. He had a lot of issues and I knew he was my miracle piggy. He was my little man. So special so unique. Don't get me wrong I loved all four of my boys but Merlin was my baby.
The first year since I lost Sam came but I made it through planning for the boys gotcha day. I had them to feel joy for and some how Apple made her way to us and helped us celebrate.
I fought so hard to get Merlin to make it that I was in shock when Mace got sick and in less than 24hrs I lost him. How could that happen he was the hulk of guinea pig world. I lost my big boy, my husband lost his friend. He didn't make it a year but he made into our hearts and will never leave there.
The second year came and I made a project in Sams memory that helped me heal. I did so much better than most thought.
The first anniversary of Maces death was hard but I was bound and determined that I would celebrate the joys of having the rest of my crew here with us alive and healthy.
I celebrated Apples birthday, I made plans to celebrate Connors bday and Dallas's gotcha that Monday afternoon. I woke up that morning and Elijah was gone. I doubled over in pain. How? Why? No time to grieve because we could see we were losing Logan. His heart was broken and he took his last breath in my arms as I cried no over and over. Within hours I could tell that Merlin was having another round of his problems. I fought so hard to keep him alive. To keep him with us but no he to left us just a few days after his second gotcha. In one week I lost the all my guinea pigs.
It hurt to lose them because there was so much wrapped up in them. I thank God that when I had the chance to meet Amy I brought Merlin to see her because some how I knew that if I didn't she wouldn't get the chance to see him again.
Now it should be three years of them being with us but that didn't happen so instead of grieving for Sam I grieve because even though my boys should be with me they are not.
Now as the days draw closer to a day that should bring so much joy I am grieving for a loss yet to come. Yes Brit is here and I have told myself for months that every day is a gift. She is past the life expectancy for her breed by several years. Yes I have the knowledge that our time is numbered but some how that feels harder. I know that it may be the last time she curls up in my lap and rubs her face into me. It may be the last time I call her BritBrit and she nuzzles my face. She has been such an amazing dog. For 15 years she blessed our family. She lived through a lot of painful losses. Lady, Sandy, Cocomo, Princess, and she also joined us because of a loss, my sweet innocent Molly Marie. Brit has lived with us through losses of so many dogs and now we are losing her. How can we let her go? Yes we will do right by her even when it breaks all of our hearts.
So I cry, and I grieve. I have said so many times to so many people yes this is painful, yes yet again my heart breaks but in the end the joy that each one of my animals brings me is 10x worth the pain that the losses bring.
So love and value the animals in our life because while we may have long to live they only bless our lives for a short time.
Part 2
OK so I wrote this on May 27 2010. A day or so later Brit died. She went on her own and very quikly. The following month a bunny I loved but didn't belong to me passed away. The month after that Montana got sick and while we tried to save her she left us as well. Somehow the grief while strong there was a peace. She left the way she entered our life on her own terms. A down word spiral seemed to be taking hold of my life, of my heart. August came and no losses part of me thought finally some peace.
Than came September so much to celebrate my moms birthday the 28th, my husbands on the 30th and October 1 would be my birthday and anniversary. On September 27th my world came crashing down. My sweet, goofy bunny Dallas Jinx Jones died. Suddenly and unexpected. We tried to celebrate our birthdays and anniversary but of course it was hard.
We went to a reptile expo October 2nd and ended up with a little aft that we called Harlequin Jinx. A little over two weeks of having her and she started showing issues. I was so scared that she wouldn't make it. She went up and down but seemed to be getting better.
November comes and I kept praying things would change. Than my grandmother's dog Lyndsay, my dogs sister got sick and died on Nov 6th. It was a shock to us all.
Harli started to to take a turn for the worse once again. She never got better and than on Dec 14th she was gone.
Wow what a year right? It has to get better right? Tell me it gets better? Yea right.
On January 15th my little viper gecko Quinn Mallory died. Than on February 14th my moms bunny Levi Gene died as I have said before my pets aren't just mine. My moms aren't just hers.
We added more and have plans to add more. Some how during this time we thought our losses had ended for awhile but on September 28th we lost Rocky. My mothers first bunny and my first foster.
So once again I end with this... So I cry, and I grieve. I have said so many times to so many people yes this is painful, yes yet again my heart breaks but in the end the joy that each one of my animals brings me is 10x worth the pain that the losses bring.
So love and value the animals in our life because while we may have long to live they only bless our lives for a short time.
Right now I am grieving on so many scales. I feel like I am wrapped up in it. How do I get out?
Part of me feels bad because I feel like I should be grieving for Sam and while I miss her the grief isn't for her. It is for my boys, and knowing that I will lose Brit.
I got my boys in large part because of my friend Amy. She got Merlin and Mace, they belonged to her but oh my god I fell in love. I had always wanted a guinea pig but seeing Merlin my heart sang and I wanted guinea pigs so bad. When the chance came up for my first two boys Skunk Boy and Peanut Butter Cup (nicknames) I jumped it just had to work.
Than I lost Sam just before they were to get here. Oh god did I hurt but I just kept making plans for my boys. They got me through even when I just wanted to curl up and die. I named them to honor Sam. Samuel Elijah and Logan Jake.
Some how things came about and Amy had to rehome her two boys. I won't go into details but it was such a rough time and lots of things happened but I got my boys. I got my Merlin that had stolen my heart before I met him. He had a lot of issues and I knew he was my miracle piggy. He was my little man. So special so unique. Don't get me wrong I loved all four of my boys but Merlin was my baby.
The first year since I lost Sam came but I made it through planning for the boys gotcha day. I had them to feel joy for and some how Apple made her way to us and helped us celebrate.
I fought so hard to get Merlin to make it that I was in shock when Mace got sick and in less than 24hrs I lost him. How could that happen he was the hulk of guinea pig world. I lost my big boy, my husband lost his friend. He didn't make it a year but he made into our hearts and will never leave there.
The second year came and I made a project in Sams memory that helped me heal. I did so much better than most thought.
The first anniversary of Maces death was hard but I was bound and determined that I would celebrate the joys of having the rest of my crew here with us alive and healthy.
I celebrated Apples birthday, I made plans to celebrate Connors bday and Dallas's gotcha that Monday afternoon. I woke up that morning and Elijah was gone. I doubled over in pain. How? Why? No time to grieve because we could see we were losing Logan. His heart was broken and he took his last breath in my arms as I cried no over and over. Within hours I could tell that Merlin was having another round of his problems. I fought so hard to keep him alive. To keep him with us but no he to left us just a few days after his second gotcha. In one week I lost the all my guinea pigs.
It hurt to lose them because there was so much wrapped up in them. I thank God that when I had the chance to meet Amy I brought Merlin to see her because some how I knew that if I didn't she wouldn't get the chance to see him again.
Now it should be three years of them being with us but that didn't happen so instead of grieving for Sam I grieve because even though my boys should be with me they are not.
Now as the days draw closer to a day that should bring so much joy I am grieving for a loss yet to come. Yes Brit is here and I have told myself for months that every day is a gift. She is past the life expectancy for her breed by several years. Yes I have the knowledge that our time is numbered but some how that feels harder. I know that it may be the last time she curls up in my lap and rubs her face into me. It may be the last time I call her BritBrit and she nuzzles my face. She has been such an amazing dog. For 15 years she blessed our family. She lived through a lot of painful losses. Lady, Sandy, Cocomo, Princess, and she also joined us because of a loss, my sweet innocent Molly Marie. Brit has lived with us through losses of so many dogs and now we are losing her. How can we let her go? Yes we will do right by her even when it breaks all of our hearts.
So I cry, and I grieve. I have said so many times to so many people yes this is painful, yes yet again my heart breaks but in the end the joy that each one of my animals brings me is 10x worth the pain that the losses bring.
So love and value the animals in our life because while we may have long to live they only bless our lives for a short time.
Part 2
OK so I wrote this on May 27 2010. A day or so later Brit died. She went on her own and very quikly. The following month a bunny I loved but didn't belong to me passed away. The month after that Montana got sick and while we tried to save her she left us as well. Somehow the grief while strong there was a peace. She left the way she entered our life on her own terms. A down word spiral seemed to be taking hold of my life, of my heart. August came and no losses part of me thought finally some peace.
Than came September so much to celebrate my moms birthday the 28th, my husbands on the 30th and October 1 would be my birthday and anniversary. On September 27th my world came crashing down. My sweet, goofy bunny Dallas Jinx Jones died. Suddenly and unexpected. We tried to celebrate our birthdays and anniversary but of course it was hard.
We went to a reptile expo October 2nd and ended up with a little aft that we called Harlequin Jinx. A little over two weeks of having her and she started showing issues. I was so scared that she wouldn't make it. She went up and down but seemed to be getting better.
November comes and I kept praying things would change. Than my grandmother's dog Lyndsay, my dogs sister got sick and died on Nov 6th. It was a shock to us all.
Harli started to to take a turn for the worse once again. She never got better and than on Dec 14th she was gone.
Wow what a year right? It has to get better right? Tell me it gets better? Yea right.
On January 15th my little viper gecko Quinn Mallory died. Than on February 14th my moms bunny Levi Gene died as I have said before my pets aren't just mine. My moms aren't just hers.
We added more and have plans to add more. Some how during this time we thought our losses had ended for awhile but on September 28th we lost Rocky. My mothers first bunny and my first foster.
So once again I end with this... So I cry, and I grieve. I have said so many times to so many people yes this is painful, yes yet again my heart breaks but in the end the joy that each one of my animals brings me is 10x worth the pain that the losses bring.
So love and value the animals in our life because while we may have long to live they only bless our lives for a short time.
JadeIcing
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Wow so lots of fun and maybe a little to much family.
Harper Emery who surprise surprise is staying.
My LAST addition for a LONG time...
Kendal Avery my african fat tailed gecko.
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On a side note. I can't foster. Allergies are getting really really bad. I can barely groom the rabbits. Can't clean cages. Can barely be in my apartment. I can handle it if there is a lot less rabbits. (It is the fur and the hay.) So as our numbers go down we won't be adding. We at some point want to have a pair and a foster. Or maybe just a foster.
Teresa is well hard to explain. We are at peace but we are giving her till Feb. If no change at that point. We will be making an appt to have her PTS. PLEASE PLEASE no questions. No suggestions. We have done what could be done. We have spoken to SEVERAL people who really know her and they all agree.
Harper Emery who surprise surprise is staying.
My LAST addition for a LONG time...
Kendal Avery my african fat tailed gecko.
---
On a side note. I can't foster. Allergies are getting really really bad. I can barely groom the rabbits. Can't clean cages. Can barely be in my apartment. I can handle it if there is a lot less rabbits. (It is the fur and the hay.) So as our numbers go down we won't be adding. We at some point want to have a pair and a foster. Or maybe just a foster.
Teresa is well hard to explain. We are at peace but we are giving her till Feb. If no change at that point. We will be making an appt to have her PTS. PLEASE PLEASE no questions. No suggestions. We have done what could be done. We have spoken to SEVERAL people who really know her and they all agree.
JadeIcing
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WTH Just posting but found a friend was murdered, 13 shots to the back. He was like a brother.
SunnyCait
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I just want to give you a big hug right now Ali. *HUG* I'm really sorry about all this stuff going on... It's a rough time. If you want to you can PM me or message me on FB...
JadeIcing
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Thank you may take you up on that.
SunnyCait
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I mean it, Ali. Whatever you need. I remember times in the past when you listened and helped me out.
JadeIcing
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*hugs* Thank you
Bassetluv
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Omigod...Ali, I'm sending hugs your way...and prayers...:hearts:
JadeIcing
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Ok so no power since Saturday 3:30pm
myheart
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Seriously?!!!:shock: How are you keeping the lizard guys warm?!
JadeIcing
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I have pictures... I cant wait to write it up. Temp has been dropping to 55 (that I actually dare move to check.). Bunnies as we know handle cold better.
SnowyShiloh
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When our heater went out at the tail end of last winter, we put a heating pad on the outside of Phoenix's cage (with the cord out of his reach) and piled fleece blankets on his cage. Figured the bunnies were okay and Arthur and Poppet (bird parents) could snuggle together.
JadeIcing
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So yea laptop fan died... Umm yea... Phone is my only link Online.
