Uh, I just want out of here...

[irishbunny]

I used to love being with my family, but for the last couple of months I've hated it. Everyone just always seems to be in a bad mood! My Dad is always cranky and tired cause he works two jobs, and most of the time we don't have a normal conversation cause he just gets mad at every thing and shouts at me. My Mother is always in a bad mood too, and spends most her time giving out and screaming at my brothers and sisters. Plus, I don't get along with my younger brothers and sisters at all, I hate them and they irritate me. The only one I get on with is my older sister, she moved out though and goes to college. She hates coming back here though cause of the bad atmosphere in the house. We used to love going places as a family, but now my parents are usually in a bad mood with each other or at my younger siblings because they are acting up, so it usually results in everyone being snappy with each other.

Uh, I just don't know what to do. My sister will be living with her boyfriend for the Summer, and I'm trying to get a job and thinking of moving in with them. Just for the Summer, see how it goes and maybe permantely move out after that. I don't know how I will or where I'll go. The only other problem is my animals, I love them so much and will probably have to leave them behind

I don't know if me leaving would be a good solution, but I just don't see how I can make things better here for me. I just hate being here. Sometimes, it can be good and I think no, I don't need to move out but the majority of the time I really want to

By the way, I'm only 16, nearly 17 and in full time education. The chance of me getting my own place is slim to none, my boyfriend is also in full time education and living with his parents. Hopefully I'll be moving out in about a year, when I go to college a few hours away

 

[Mrs. PBJ]

Take a deep breath. We all want out at 17. Don't grow up to fast.

I things seem hard but this to shall pass.

 

[Fancy77]

OH heck I hear ya Grace...it sounds rough but when I felt like u I try to think of who might have it more rough than me. I just watched the movie "Precious" and OMG I had it made when I was younger lol

 

[irishbunny]

I don't know, I just really don't like being here, I'm almost always in a bad mood these days at home because everyone else is

 

[Fancy77]

I know its hard Grace...try to b strong huni

 

[nicolevins]

irishbunny wrote:

By the way, I'm only 16, nearly 17 and in full time education. The chance of me getting my own place is slim to none, my boyfriend is also in full time education and living with his parents. Hopefully I'll be moving out in about a year, when I go to college a few hours away

Sorry Grace but I just noticed that there..

But Im sure everything will be ok :hug: Things will eventually get better. My family has been going through tough time since I was 11.. Im almost 14 now and things are starting to get better.

 

[jcottonl02]

I went through quite a bad patch with my family about a year ago. We always got on so well, but at the time my Dad was working 24/7 hard labour work, barely getting sleep, and didn't realise he was diabetic, so was feeling ill all the time, dizzy, and his sight was starting to go because of his lack of glucose (obviously it returned as soon as he started his medication). My Mum was stressed cos my Dad was stressed, and she was bogged down with work, and works from home, so had the stress of all of us for a while, and had her own worries about various things.

Plus i wasn't doing amazingly at school, and my Dad was always disappointed in me, so that led him to sort of...aim all his anger at me for no reason, because of his underlying disappointment, and I am not too great in arguements and say silly things. He wanted me so much to do really well at my A levels, end up with As, only so I would have the best life he could possibly give me, so I understand why he was so upset with me, because I barely did any work at all, didn't revise for my exams until the night before...and so ended up with 3Cs in maths, bio and chem. Which was not what I was expecting at all. Hopefully now I can redeem myself at Uni though lol- I am actually working my socks off now. I'm not spending 3grand a year for nothing!!!!!! They worked so hard to help me- always gave me any support I needed for my education, any money, and books, any time etc. So it was awful of me not to work. Really selfish. I understand that now, and hope I can make them proud of me with a first class degree. I know I can do it, i just need to work. They say they are proud of me now, bless them , but I know they would be uber proud if I got a first (and surprised, cos they know how hard i find it to focus and really work hard)

Me and my sister were NOT getting on AT ALL. It was unbearable.

Only for a few months though. And now we all get along just like before. I felt like I didn't want to be there anymore, but then you just stick it out, and now all I want to do is be there.

Now all i think about is being home with my family, and when I do, we just have the most amazing time. Filled with love, and hugs, and wonderful evenings of family games, dinners and days out. Just like it used to be. I don't go a day now without ringing them all, and chatting and msning etc.

Just stick it out, and try and get some distance for a while. Everyone goes through bad patches, and if you are all going through them at the same time then that is just a bomb waiting to go off. Also it's hard if you spend 24/7 together like we all did- sometimes it gets a bit much and you argue about silly things.
I know it's hard and you feel like it will never get better, but I'm sure it will.

They love you, and probably don't realise how they are making you feel. Is there a way you can sit down with them, and say you want a calm, and completely honest conversation, and chat about it?

Hope it gets better for you, hun. It's not nice at all to argue with people you love, but I really am sure it will get better. These things always do.

 

[bunnybunbunb]

I relish the times when I am home alone! I am sort of the "pack leader" in the house. When my dad left I was basicly put in control. Mom comes to me, I decide on mostly what is kept in the house, where we go, ect. I clean, I cook mostly. Mom has all these ailments and so I am sort of in control. I am the kind of person that has to be in control but it gets overwelming. I have been doing it since I was 12 so I have got use to it but it gets hard. I... have really bad moments. But I have friends I text when I need to let things out.

Last year I had the plans of going to Canada and staying with a really good friend once I turned 18 in June but with all the animals I can't. I do hope to get to a friend's place later this year for a while. She is many hours away so it is far enough away to get a clear head and think.

At least a few times a week I leave. We have lots of nature around so I go for a long walk in the hills or up in the creek. I spend a few minutes on the hill or hours, a mile or more up through fields, in the creek and laying on trees. If I can not get away I lock myself in a room and read or take a long shower. It really helps for the moments of "I can not take much more". It does not help for the moments of "I can not take any more" but I try not to let it get there.

If you need to talk I am here. I feel your pain and can relate. It is nice talking to people with the same troubles.

 

[irishbunny]

Thanks all of you!
Thankfully, I have a huge party tomorrow night with a lot of drink, so I can forget about it for awhile.

 

[irishbunny]

K so I was doing really well all day and so excited because of the party, and now for no reason really all I want to do it scream and cry :S

 

[jcottonl02]

irishbunny wrote:

K so I was doing really well all day and so excited because of the party, and now for no reason really all I want to do it scream and cry :S

I can completely sympathise with you there. Sometimes I am totally the same.
I can be totally fine one minute, and then the absolute smallest thing, or even nothing at all, makes me just want to cry for hours, for no reason!

Try and think of something nice. Your bunnies? You friends? What are you doing in the future? Think about when you will have your own flat, with your lovely pets, and you'll be able to do whatever you want. It will only be a few years- you can last! You can make your flat just the way u want it, devote the whole house to your bunnies, cook, or dance to loud music, or...do whatever it is that you love to do!

For now, why not listen to your favourite music? Talk to some friends online? What a hilarious movie with a nice bucket of fried chicken . That always makes me feel so much better.
Go for a walk. With your dog (I think you have one?), to a lovely, quiet field or woods. Walk with him briskly and use up that energy that is making you want to scream. Try and let all your bad feelings wash away, and just destress and feel calm in the lovely surroundings and nature.

Hope you feel better

 

[irishbunny]

Thanks
Hopefully I'll be fine tomorrow, I won't be home all Friday and Saturday so hopefully it will be fun with my friends.

It was just a few things that set me off today, just small things and I'm crying for nothing. I'm never really this bad, I don't know why I am today. Uh I dunno. I know I am sounding really silly and I'll be laughing at myself later

 

[jcottonl02]

You sound just like me.

I often think 'why did I get so so depressed earlier?', and can't work it out. Often I get really depressed, and then a few hours later I feel really happy again, and can't understand why I felt so bad
Except the other day. I felt bad for about.....a week? And couldn't get out of it. I was actually worrying a little bit...wondering if I would ever be myself again.
Thankfully, after about a week of just constant depression and crying, I am back to my normal self...but it was quite scary.

Just try and see the bright side- I know it's hard, and me saying that doesnt help much atm, but try and put this in perspective. That always seems to help me