So, I think I have an ED.

[happatk]

I'm a binge eater. I don't know why, but sometimes I just have the urge to eat, even when I'm not hungry, and I can't stop myself. I end up stuffing myself until I get sick and then hate myself for it later. I suspect that my binging is caused by a depression I didn't know I had, but I've decided to go get help.


I'm kinda scared, cause I've never been to a therapist before and I don't want to be classified as crazy, even though I know that's not the case. When I think about it, I've had this problem since high school, I just didn't realize it wasn't normal until now.

Maybe if I get help, I can actually be normal instead of just acting normal. That would be nice.

I dunno why I'm telling you guys... I don't really know you all, but I feel like I need to tell someone about what's going on with me. My parents think it's my own fault and my friends think I'm the most cheerful person in the world. I feel like a fraud. :tears2:

Yeah, I sound like a stereotype.

 

[Maureen Las]

Millions of people eat like that and won't get help; it is easy to eat when you are nervous or frustrated or unhappy or bored or to cover up a feeling.

I think that it is really great that you are going to see someone about it .

 

[bunnybunbunb]

I have struggled, and still do, with multiple EDs. If you can get help then do so. Your parents sound like idiots to me, you do not choose to feel the way you do(wanting binging is a feeling), most people who binge space out and have no control over when to stop. You just stop when you get that high. After awhile it takes more and more food to get it, which is why people get morbidly obese.

 

[kahlin]

I am a binge eater as well (also called compuslive overeating). It's something I'm working on.

It's a really hard addiction to work with because you need food to survive.

 

[Fancy77]

I give u props for coming to terms with the fact u might need help...so many ppl live in denial about these things, u are a strong person for moving past denial
:great:

 

[happatk]

Aw, thanks guys.

I found out my college has therapists that I can go see for free, so I'm definitely gonna go check them out next week.

Hmm, this is gonna be rough, but if I can break free of this crap, it'll be worth it. ^_^

 

[trailsend]

You are a very strong person to take the first step in getting help. You are not crazy - many people need to see therapists for help for various things and most of them are not crazy, they just need some help. Your parents don't sound helpful at all if they are telling you it's your fault. It's not.

I wish you the best of luck and I faith you'll be able to overcome this since you are clearly brave enough to take the first step in getting better. Good for you!

 

[kirbyultra]

Yeah! Good for you for taking the big first step. I wish you good luck working it through.

 

[Amy27]

I use to have an eating disorder and the best thing I did was get help. I loved my counselor. She was so cool and helped me so much. I was really scared to go the first time but within 5 minutes I was so comfortable with my counselor. I loved going to her. You are taking the first step in making a positive change in your life. Congrats on taking that step and looking these problems right in the eye and dealing with them. A few months from now you will be so glad you did. I am not going to say it was always easy. But now, years later, I really feel it was one of the best decision I have made in my life. If you ever want anyone to talk to my PM box is open.

 

[wabbitmom12]

happatk wrote:

Aw, thanks guys.

I found out my college has therapists that I can go see for free, so I'm definitely gonna go check them out next week.

Hmm, this is gonna be rough, but if I can break free of this crap, it'll be worth it. ^_^

I'm so glad that you can do this for free! College students don't typically have much $$. Therapy can be very expensive. Sometimes it seems so backwards:" You're struggling? Okay, we will help you but we need a pile of money...sorry if that gives you more stress!"

I'm proud of your courage - hang in there!