Oh boy, glad I'm not a teenager any longer
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I really don't know about being 'in love' at 13 or not, but you sure can form incredibly strong attachments. And at that age, everything seems magnified. If you're angry, you're like a volcano, if you're happy you boing around like a spring lamp. So if you get a crush, it seems so consuming and it's all you can think about.
I had my first boyfriend when I was 14, and was sure I loved him at the time. A few months later when he dumped me, I only cried for an hour, I was getting over it by the end of that week; a months later, I never really though of him ever again (until recently when he emailed me, but that's another story!).
I also had an amazingly good male friend, Josh, when I started highschool at 13. never saw him as anything other than a friend until I was 15. My brother and I went away to stay with my dad, and on the drive down there I had this sudden realisation that I indeed did love Josh very much. I missed him like crazy, I was miserable the whole time. We wrote long soppy letters to eachother, planned out future together.
We were together for 3 years, got engaged, the whole she-bang. But then he had an accident at work and banged his head pretty hard on a concrete floor, he just wasn't ever the same after that. he became cold and strange and withdrawn and couldn't express emotions or love after that, so we eventually parted ways.
Anyway, just wanted to say that I know how you feel! The boys I had a crush on when I was your age still give me a flutter in my tummy when I see them as adults
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