TinysMom
Well-Known Member
I've had more than one comment recently from various folks about how "quiet" I've been lately.....and I think I'm reaching my breaking point. So I'm putting this out here for anyone else I've hurt or offended or whatever....
It's been a rough couple of months for me. I went home to my mom's and then came home and spent about 3 weeks mostly grieving the loss of my mother (as I knew her) and trying to accept that at 80 - she is sort of the "shell" of the woman I knew. I also had to deal with the fact that my next trip home will probably be for her funeral or to put her in a nursing home. Mind you - my mom at my age - was far far stronger than I am (and stubborn too) - I can still picture her out mowing our 1 acre yard with a push mower 'cause dad took the riding one to mow his "postage stamp" lawn for his mobile home... So the loss I'm feeling - especially with her memory loss (mainly short term) is just devastating.
Add to that the fact that our central air went out and so the house (even with window air conditioners) is still getting over 80 degrees every day (90 in some places)....and the fact that I'm now working in the a.m. merchandising (and getting used to being on my feet for 4 or more hours per day along with bending and stuff)...and I'm wiped out physically.
Anyway - I have neglected several friendships - not so much on purpose (even saying to myself regularly, "I need to email so and so" or "I need to call so and so")...but simply out of spiritual, physical and emotional exhaustion.
It has only been in the last few days that I've really felt up to posting - and even then ... mainly in my blog or talking about my bunnies. I've not even been up to being a moderator in the rabbitry.
I say all this to say....if I have offended some or made you feel like I didn't care - I'm sorry. My list of people who I normally email with and haven't emailed since before I left for my mom's....is scary. There are at least 10 people I keep saying I'm going to "reconnect" with...and I never get around to it.
I will try to do better at connecting with folks in the forum....as I can. Right now - I'm just focusing on making it through the day (especially the heat of the day) and facing the next one...
I do love so many of you - and thanks to those who have reached out to me via. pm or email to ask if I'm ok.
I'm not ok....but I'm getting there.
My one redeeming thought is that "Normal is just a setting on the dryer"...
:biggrin2:
It's been a rough couple of months for me. I went home to my mom's and then came home and spent about 3 weeks mostly grieving the loss of my mother (as I knew her) and trying to accept that at 80 - she is sort of the "shell" of the woman I knew. I also had to deal with the fact that my next trip home will probably be for her funeral or to put her in a nursing home. Mind you - my mom at my age - was far far stronger than I am (and stubborn too) - I can still picture her out mowing our 1 acre yard with a push mower 'cause dad took the riding one to mow his "postage stamp" lawn for his mobile home... So the loss I'm feeling - especially with her memory loss (mainly short term) is just devastating.
Add to that the fact that our central air went out and so the house (even with window air conditioners) is still getting over 80 degrees every day (90 in some places)....and the fact that I'm now working in the a.m. merchandising (and getting used to being on my feet for 4 or more hours per day along with bending and stuff)...and I'm wiped out physically.
Anyway - I have neglected several friendships - not so much on purpose (even saying to myself regularly, "I need to email so and so" or "I need to call so and so")...but simply out of spiritual, physical and emotional exhaustion.
It has only been in the last few days that I've really felt up to posting - and even then ... mainly in my blog or talking about my bunnies. I've not even been up to being a moderator in the rabbitry.
I say all this to say....if I have offended some or made you feel like I didn't care - I'm sorry. My list of people who I normally email with and haven't emailed since before I left for my mom's....is scary. There are at least 10 people I keep saying I'm going to "reconnect" with...and I never get around to it.
I will try to do better at connecting with folks in the forum....as I can. Right now - I'm just focusing on making it through the day (especially the heat of the day) and facing the next one...
I do love so many of you - and thanks to those who have reached out to me via. pm or email to ask if I'm ok.
I'm not ok....but I'm getting there.
My one redeeming thought is that "Normal is just a setting on the dryer"...
:biggrin2:
. Sending hugs....
