Irratated

[Blaze_Amita]

I'm in this stuck spot where I moved with my family down to Kentucky from NY. I can't find a job, I can't find my rabbit feed, I can't find my horse feed(which is okay, I am going to switch them over this winter) and I'm just plum irratated because I know I can go back if I chose to and I can get my old job back. I came down because my mom 'begged' me to, she didn't want to stay at my aunts house(dad's sister) alone while dad was at work and she insisted it would be a good change.

THe only problems are :the cost to ship my horses. It was $1,000 to ship them down here. I'm afraid of loosing any more rabbits in a return move, I lost one coming down, and the cost of moving in general. Plus getting all my stuff out of storage and getting that back to NY.

I was a born and raised New Yorker, and now at 25 years old, I'm in Kentucky. I somehow wished I had stayed in NY, against my mom's wishes and begging, and found a place to live on my own with my rabbits and horses. Rent was just cheaper renting room from my parents. I'm single and not very attractive(I'm serious there) so there wasn't a worry about a bfriend.

Not that Kentucky is bad, I don't want people to think I hate it here, I just am confused, lost and lord-only-knows-what is going on in my head. Not to mention I'm getting sick of being told I sound funny. for two and a half weeks I've been told I sound funny by almost EVERYONE!

Sorry, had to get that off my chest.

 

[undergunfire]

I feel your pain, I really do. I'm an upstate NYer and I moved to AZ 4 years ago. I'm glad I lost some of what little accent I have...I don't ever really get told that I talk funny anymore. People used to make me say "coffee/valley/car/etc", just to laugh at me.

I still want to move back to NY, but we can't do that for 3 years. We were going to move very soon, but crap happened.....so we are here still :grumpy:.

Not to sound bad or anything....but you are going to have a tough road ahead of you if you really miss NY a whole lot right now. I mean, it might get easier for you...it just depends. Moving from NY (which I thought sucked at the time) to a stupid small tri-city type area in AZ (where it takes 2 hours or so to get to a big city).....now that SUCKS! I was also 16. I am almost 21 now.

I'm still homesick from time to time, but even more so now since I just went back to NY last month....after not being back there for 3 years.

I think my major problem is that I have hated AZ soooo much and have always known that I want to get out as soon as I possibly can...that I haven't bothered making friends. Plus, I'm mature for my age (already married) and a lot of people my age just want to party all the time. So, we are always two different people whenever I meet a new possible friend. Besides, I have a lot of anxiety issues and that doesn't help. Overall....I don't think people here are as friendly as they are in NY (or the east coast in general).

NY and AZ are totally different worlds. Everything is different. It's the desert here and NY is "full of life".

 

[hartleybun]

:bunnyhug::bunnyhug: from a proud uglybug whose damned if she'll stop talking in her devon accent:biggrin2:

go with your heart on this one

 

[DeniseJP]

Sorry to hear of the frustration for both Blaze and Amy...

I know the horse shipping can be astronomical - I just sold my 1975 trailer as it needed a ton of work and already I feel that my wings are clipped...but it was not safe for horses anymore...the ramp door was falling off on the left side.

Amy, I am so sorry that your move is delayed... wish I could send pumpkins, apple cider and fall leaves to you - my biggest autumn memory was burning leaves in CT with my grandpa, who was like my dad. I have a burn barrel, which is allowed in my rural town and burning the few maple leaves I have evokes great memories.

I have been in upstate NY for almost 20 years now...it took me that long to make friends and feel settled - although any visit to the ocean makes my heart long for it as I grew up in CT near the water.

I don't think you ever lose a longing for home, wherever that may be and you always find comfort there. I did not have a good childhood and was happy to leave bad memories behind when I moved... but the ocean does something to me that the lakes just don't have.



Blaze - what kind of horses do you have? What type of work are you looking for? I am not sure I can be of any help but I kept an open mind when I got laid off in 2004...a job I thought I could do forever in medical billing. I was on unemployment, I was not sure what I wanted to do and ended up taking a civil service test, had some interviews from Hell that made me run to a coffee shop for chocolate cake and coffee (don't tell the endocrinologist THAT one...LOL), but then an interview came that changed my life...the one that has me in a public high school as a secretary to the principal... a place I NEVER imagined I would be, and a place I love... even with the challenges of working with kids and their parents. My customer service skills come into play every day - if a teacher, student or parent needs something, I can help and make things right or close to right.

:hug: Hugs to you both... as I get older, I am getting to see that the universe or Higher Power tends to have a plan for us... so I look at each day with a positive spin... even when things look like they have been flushed down the john, potty or loo... and I always try to smile at everyone I meet... it is amazing what positivity can do.

When life gives you lemons - to Hell with the lemonade, make a lemon meringue pie! I remember that as a first grader (back in the Middle Ages), my teacher read us the book "Amelia Bedelia," which was about a maid that took all her instructions literally to a fault (if I remember correctly, changing the curtains made her not change them as instructed but she cut them up with scissors to "change them", but her true talent was lemon meringue pie and that saved her day.

Take each day at a time...things happen for a reason and when one door closes, another opens.

Denise

 

[Blaze_Amita]

Thanks ladies! We're looking at 6 month lease apartments in the next few days, so we are out of my aunts house. Now all i have to do when we get to the apartment is find a barn with an acre or two for the hroses and a big enough barn to have a run in for the horses and a spot aside for my rabbits.
I remember Amelia Bedelia, one of my teachers in elementary school used to read them to us too.
As for a job. i was in medical manufactoring, so i've applied to food processing/packaging and similar jobs. I've also worked at convient stores, while I do have the skills to work in customer service, i really prefer not to, so i'm holding off as a last resort on that one.
I have a 15.3HH Solid Red dun appaloosa, Phoenix. He's almost 26 and a retired hunter jumper. Jasmine is 14.3HH, 16 year old, bay arabian resuce mare. She's just a 'pet' she's a hard keeper, unlike phoenix who's an easy keeper. Her weight changes soo much, right now i'm fighting to get weight back onto her, she's been loosing weight since the spring, i'm sure the move in sept didn't help, but she's always been like this since she was rescued 4 years ago(I got her 3 years ago)

 

[Mrs. PBJ]

I hope everything works out for you.

I am kinda in the same boat. I want to get off the island but EJ wants to stay. I am going to have to live with my sister three days a week. To watch her twins I am trying to get him to move by her but he is tired of moving its only a hour but still.

I am in a way torn also. I love the slow life of the island compared to houston it very slow. But I want to make that move.

We have ven thought baout getting a second apartment down there and lving where we want to that week but to ship animals and such is a pain in our rump.