Luluznewz
Well-Known Member
So this is a total rant, so no one really needs to read it if they donât want to. I guess I just had to let stuff out. Sorry in advance.
My new year is starting in perfect fashion with how the rest of the year went. My friends were going to go up to my house in Santa Cruz (where I go to school). It was all planned, my sister invited a lot of friends from out of town who were excited to go. And then, at 12 last night my friends just cancelled, saying there was another party that was closer. With a sweet âI donât want to uspet the girlâ tone they said we could go the next day.
I know I should be flexible, but Iâm really hurt. I had to cancel the party because the bulk of the people were not going to be there. In addition they were my closest friends, so I didnât feel like I could do it without them.
My other friends are mad, my sisters friends are mad, and I feel terrible. Again. This wouldnât be a big deal, but its just been such a hard hard year. I couldnât find a job and my classes were super hard and I didnât do so well. Also, I broke up with the guy Iâd been dating two years.
I broke up with him, I know, but I acted really rashly. Iâve spent probably close to four months trying to come to terms with it, but its still sort of tearing me up. He has a new girlfriend and I just cant seem to actually LIKE any of the guys I dated since.â
I just feel like this is my life. Always feeling kinda bad. I have it pretty easy too, so its only going to get harder. I just cant seem to get people to not flake on me. I just really cant seem to matter in this world at all.
I know Iâm going to feel better once it all settles and convince myself Iâm fine, but the fact is this is going to happen again. And again. And again. I guess Iâm just the person who is easy to leave.
Again Iâm SO SO sorry for this rant. I know there are a ton of people with a lot more worries. I generally like my life, but this has just been a really horrible year.
Also, my rabbit still sort of hates me. The most affection Iâll ever get is she lowers herself to taking a rasin out of my hand. I suppose I donât really blame her at this point.
I don't mean to annoy anyone, I just couldnt whine to my friends because its sorta about them...
My new year is starting in perfect fashion with how the rest of the year went. My friends were going to go up to my house in Santa Cruz (where I go to school). It was all planned, my sister invited a lot of friends from out of town who were excited to go. And then, at 12 last night my friends just cancelled, saying there was another party that was closer. With a sweet âI donât want to uspet the girlâ tone they said we could go the next day.
I know I should be flexible, but Iâm really hurt. I had to cancel the party because the bulk of the people were not going to be there. In addition they were my closest friends, so I didnât feel like I could do it without them.
My other friends are mad, my sisters friends are mad, and I feel terrible. Again. This wouldnât be a big deal, but its just been such a hard hard year. I couldnât find a job and my classes were super hard and I didnât do so well. Also, I broke up with the guy Iâd been dating two years.
I broke up with him, I know, but I acted really rashly. Iâve spent probably close to four months trying to come to terms with it, but its still sort of tearing me up. He has a new girlfriend and I just cant seem to actually LIKE any of the guys I dated since.â
I just feel like this is my life. Always feeling kinda bad. I have it pretty easy too, so its only going to get harder. I just cant seem to get people to not flake on me. I just really cant seem to matter in this world at all.
I know Iâm going to feel better once it all settles and convince myself Iâm fine, but the fact is this is going to happen again. And again. And again. I guess Iâm just the person who is easy to leave.
Again Iâm SO SO sorry for this rant. I know there are a ton of people with a lot more worries. I generally like my life, but this has just been a really horrible year.
Also, my rabbit still sort of hates me. The most affection Iâll ever get is she lowers herself to taking a rasin out of my hand. I suppose I donât really blame her at this point.
I don't mean to annoy anyone, I just couldnt whine to my friends because its sorta about them...
. So nice of them! Its not like I don't have some parties I can go to but it just feels crappy being ditched after planning something and not being told about it until the last minute.
