Bad day for self-esteem

[Ivory]

I know I'm 20 years old and I'm supposed to largely be over most of these things (so I'm told) but today...I felt like absolute crap about my appearance. Like, I was so down on myself I was randomly beginning to cry during different times.

I know, I know, I haven't talked much about Erik lately...but my little bun is doing well. But back to my point...

I range anywhere from 125-132 pounds on a regular basis...but even though my weight hasn't changed, I've been more out of shape lately. My butt has gotten a little bigger and my stomach has gotten a little fatter. I'm 5'2, which is pretty short...so I can't really gain any weight without it looking like I've gained like fifty thousand pounds...

At any rate I've just felt really horrible about myself today and I'm trying to get myself out of it. I ate really well today and avoided candy/junk food.

Secondly, I have really disproportionate ****s, like really large. This doesn't bode very well for my self-esteem, in all honesty. I feel that they're large and pendulous and ridiculous looking, and gross.

I just feel really lost today. I know I have problems with depression/anxiety but they're normally pretty controllable, but today they were just worse.

In all honesty I posted this because I needed someone to kind of relate to or give me some kind of encouragement/word of advice/something along those lines. Or a virtual hug, those are nice too. I also wanted to let anyone else who may be feeling like this know that they're not alone.

At any rate, feel free to discuss this sort of thing going on with you or something to relate about. Maybe even a cute picture of a bunny, I may supply one of those lol.

 

[pinksalamander]

I know how you feel so much. Sometimes I stand infront of the mirror and go 'What happened?'. I've been overweight my whole life so I keep dreaming of having a lovely svelte figure but its difficult to change the habit of a lifetime. I've also never had a boyfriend (well... lets not go there ) and I constantly think its because of how I look.

:hug: Its probably not as bad as you think. Us girls are so criticising over our own bodies.

Fran :hearts :brownbunny

 

[Happi Bun]

Virtual Hug to you! :hug:

I can totally relate. I used to be so in shape and thin. I'm 5'2" as well. When I went on anti-depressants I gained 30 lbs (it made me more hungry)and my hormones got out ofwhack. Now I cant seem to get the darn weight off! I weigh 137 lbs, which actually I don't feel too bad about. I would just like to tighten up my tummy, lose some chunk off my thighs and bum.

I may not have a perfect figure but I think I have a pretty good personality and I try to help others and make a difference. At the end of the day that's what matters mostto me andif peoplesay otherwise then... :raspberry: to them!

 

[Luvmyzoocrew]

I can relate too once i had a collar bone that i could see and also these things called hip bones, i havent seen those things in a while,lol. i am not making light of it at all but you just have to get to a point that you accept your body, i have never been skinny, except a short period in my life i had a body, that is long gone and has been for a while now. I have large ****s, but what good are they when i lay down and i am flat chested like a boy, and they are hanging out with my armpits :shock: , or when i dont have a bra on and i can tuck them in my pockets of my pants!!!!!!!! lol



You have to have a sense of humor, i am so in need of loosing weight after i have this baby, but even when i loose weight things arent as ................. well gravity has taken effect of my body and skin and such, oh then i can add wrinkles and grey hair, lol. Not many people have the perfect body, i dont want to look sickly skinny but i would like to be skinnier too,lol. Hugs to you

 

[Cove]

Somebody needs a snuggle.

I've felt that way more then once in my 20 years of life. I've gainedweight since last winter (I used to be just able to see my hips and not have a spare tire around me) and it is a constant battle to get rid of it some daysI just get so sick of all the "you have to be thin, you have to look like this or that" crud I just want to hide in bed all day and cry, eating some good ol' Peanutbutter Cup ice cream and snuggle with the furbabies.

I look at Reyna, my 16 month old kitty (pictured above) and think look at her, the poor girl was born outside, lost her mom at 4 weeks old, lost her siblings (to forever homes)shortly after. Her mother chewed her leg off at birth and she later had to have the rest of it removed to help her get around and she's not mopey. She's spent over a month in the hospital fighting a stubborn infection. So why should I be becaused I've gained some weight and am nothing like those models on TV or in papers? Most of those girls I'm sure would give anything to be like the average person.

I look at Bosco, the partner's 5 year old kitty. Bosco was covered in fleas, starved several times before coming to him, got so overweight that he couldn't walk more then two steps before he had to lay down and couldn't clean himself and then after losing most of his extra weight got diabetes. Yet he's not mopey or saying I want to look like those cats on TV. He's happy with how his life his, he's loved.

I think of Floof's background as well as the foster trio's and all the animals I've come to know through the rescue and think hell what am I so blah about? I've got a good life, furries that love me and make my life complete, a home, a caring family, a caring partner and his mother as well as a vast group of other people I've met both online and in real life through the rescue. Yes I want to loose the extra poundage but I'm not going to get all mopey and upset about it.

We all have hurdles to jump and some may be tall but you'll find a way over them. Ranting helps, and I'm sure there will be other who can give some words of encouragement to you to help you through the "blah days" as I call them. :biggrin2:

 

[NZminilops]

I can relate :?, I'm 4'11" and have the appetite of someone who's 6'"11. I don't think I've had a day where I thought I looked good since I was 12.

:hug: